As I sat with my backpack on my lap in the back of a little van heading “home,” I looked out the window as it continued to pour down rain. At this point I’m pretty used to rain, considering this was probably day 7 or 8 of our rainy day streak here in Guatemala… but, somehow the Lord used the rain that I was so incredibly tired of, to remind me of himself.
I noticed that if I didn’t look very hard I could see the houses and trees passing by, but if I focused my eyes I could see every individual water drop on the window and nothing else past them. Then the Lord said, “Imagine me as the rain drops. If you are focused on those(me) you don’t have to be searching for what’s beyond them, and the more you focus, the more drops I will allow to fall away so what’s beyond the glass is clear.”
The past couple weeks my mind has been racing around trying to imagine what life is going to be like when I get home. Do I go to college? Do I team lead? Do I just get on another plane and keep exploring the world and all of God’s people? And yes, trust me, I know I still have 7 and a half months until I get back to figure all that out, but I still have a million questions I wish I had the answers to now.
Thankfully the Lord used those raindrops to remind me that if I stay focused on him he will reveal what’s next. There is no need for me to ask a million questions or search for what’s next if he is going to reveal it to me on his own timing. He already knows what I will be doing. He already knew I would be here and where I will be after since the day I was born. And every day before and after that. The more I trust the Lord and focus on those raindrops, the more he’s going to clarify what’s next. If I chose to try to look past them and see what’s next on my own, I will only get blurriness until I return back to him.
Thanks God for rainy days.
