This past week Agape Home received 7 new children all from a government orphanage nearby. Four of them are under the age of 6 months, two are in the toddler room and one is 5 years old. The littlest ones have practically non stop cried since they got here but the others are adjusting better than expected. None of the kids have any type of paperwork so they can never be adopted, which basically means they will live at Agape until they are old enough that they have to make a life for themselves, without a family.
If I’m being honest it was probably the most heartbreaking thing I’ve ever experienced. The overall thought of knowing 7 different families didn’t want their kids and watching all the kids come in with scared and confused faces was horrible. It made me feel so guilty that I have not only parents, but sisters with husbands and nieces and cousins and aunts and uncles and a grandpa while these kids will grow up with the closest thing to family being the nannies and their friends.
I really had to keep turning to the Lord this week and asking him to remind me that he was there and that they were there for some reason even if it seemed impossible to see any positive in that. He kept reassuring me that he was holding them in his hands and was never going to leave them even if those who were supposed to do the same, didn’t. I think he was reminding me a lot that a big part of him letting our hearts break for his children is so that we may return our hearts to being thankful for the things we have that others don’t, and to never forget to continue to thank him for those blessings.
I am thankful the Lord allowed these children to be here and not somewhere else where they would not be taken care of. I am also thankful the Lord put me here and gave me the opportunity to give as much love to these kids as I possibly can in the time that I have with them. To know that I can be his hands and feet on this earth is truly the most beautiful pleasure.
