It seems my lack of blogging has followed me home.
I’ve been back home for about four months now and a lot has happened. Including getting my job back, moving out of mom’s, living in community and most importantly: College!
For the last three weeks I’ve been going to community college and absolutely loving it. I love my teachers, the campus, I even love homework (don’t judge me!). Right now I’ll blame that all on my four-year gap from school.
I even enjoy the challenges. My teachers encourage us as students to question, question and question again. Question the way people live, why they do what they do, the validity of things…
Which had me facing a challenge that I, a lot of time, assume I’m alone in. It left me asking God: Am I strong enough in my faith to be asking so many questions? And even God are You real?
Daily, I’m surrounded by people who have a negative view of Christianity. People whom they themselves have questioned it and found no answers. I refuse to become the student who stops questioning just because she hasn’t found answers.
So today, as we talked about evolution in church, I felt a need to change the way I was praying my prayers as of late.
Prayers like: Am I allowed to question You, Lord? And What are the answers?
Instead, my prayers will be: Where are You in the answers? And Where are You in the questions?
Because after all, questions or no questions answers or no answers, God is still there. And I’m still hungry to be in His presence and to experience who He is.
