Team changes went down yesterday and after a whole 3 months of trippin' about it all I have learned is that I can be a total idiot. Throughout all of South America God has been reminding me to love with all of my heart…even if that means it's going to be broken. So instead of taking that as a warning and going with it anyway I went in and out of being open to closed and back again. But I don't think I would have wanted to learn that lesson with an other team than my old team.
Our squad leaders gave us folded cards with our new teams on them and told us not to open them until we were ready. This is the journal entry I wrote right before I read the card:
Proverbs 3:5-6
I love You. I trust You. I trust You with the plans You have for me. You have not failed me ever. I'm going to Albania. I'm going to Albania with You. I've been in South America these last months because of You. And my prayers have always been answered. You're not going to drop me. You're in this and I am in this. Let's do it.
…But I'm scared. I'm scared. I'm scared. I'm scared. I'm scared. I see You with Your hand over my heart asking if I trust You…and I do. But I'm scared.
My former team (Lamplighters): Nathan Dickens (leader), Allison Priz, Jenna Kehrli, Ginny Allison, Evan Kinney
My new team (I-61): Evan Kinney (leader), Melissa Lowell, Jesse and Cory German, Jenna Kehrli, Ginny Allison
I-61 stands for Isaiah 61. We want our team to reflect the fact that we all have an ashes to beauty story and are still growing in that.
I'm really excited for this team. I know I'm going to grow tremendously. It's bittersweet to see that Allison is on another team and that Nathan is a squad leader but I know we are all going to have amazing experiences even if we are not together.
Let's do this.
