Wait.
That’s all I heard.
Wait. So much is coming, but you need to wait.
You know those times when you feel like your relationship with God should be at its greatest, but it’s not. That time when you are surrounded by a community of believers who are all pushing into a closer relationship with God and you feel none of His presence.
That was me last week. We had just arrived in Chiang Mai, Thailand and God was so present and tangible in the room with Q squad. As I sat on the roof doing some quiet time, I couldn’t hear or feel God. I couldn’t find Him. I knew He was with me, but I couldn’t tell. I was so frustrated at myself because this is my first month on the race! If this happens now, who knows what month 6 or 8 would be like!
At training camp, Lena prophesied over me saying she saw me in a renewal process much like an oyster producing a pearl. In order for an oyster to create a pearl, the oyster must have an irritation, much like a splinter, which then forms the pearl. For me, some of my story is that irritation. I have scars, burns, and shame that are now forming pearls.
God is turning my hardships into beauty.
He is turning my shame into a redemptive story.
He is making me new each day.
He is molding me into a beautiful, rare pearl.
But, I have to wait.
It’s a process.
The walk ahead is full of freedom.
But, right now I’m waiting for God to speak and lead me.
In His time. His plan. His will. His story in me.
