I’ll just start with the reason for this blog: I switched squads. I absolutely never thought I would, but God worked in a matter of hours to change my heart. I am now on Q squad. This means I’ll be going to Thailand, Cambodia, Vietnam, South Africa, Mozambique, Swaziland, Nepal, India, Turkey, Bulgaria, and Romania.
Several weeks ago an email was sent our to the ladies of R and S squads telling us that some needed to move in order to balance out the squad numbers and all that jazz.
I’m not going to lie- I didn’t even read the whole email. I knew R squad was where I was supposed to be.
No questions. Done.
Then we got another email. I didn’t read that one either. I couldn’t admit to myself that R squad is changing and people are moving.
It wasn’t happening in my mind.
And then people started getting personal phone calls from mobilizers. All I could think and pray was just don’t call me! I want R squad!
Fast forward to yesterday…
I received a call from Erin, my mobilizer, while I was at work so I didn't answer. I called her back and she asked me to consider switching to Q squad. Honestly, I didn’t even want to hear the reasons why. I didn’t want to change.
Commence my freak out of trying to decide. I started to pray for R squad and Q squad. I prayed that God would clearly show me what I was supposed to do. I prayed over the countries of each route. I couldn’t decide.
And then I realized how selfish I was being. I wanted to stay on R squad because I’ve been talking to those squadmates since November and they’re super cool! I loved every country we were planned to go to. I also rationalized staying because the squad color was blue…yep, that was a reason to me. I have a ton of blue. How stupid of a reason to stay is that!
But then God spoke to me– or I should say, then I actually listened to God. The whole time He was telling me that I belong on Q squad. The reasons I came up with were selfish and stubborn.
The other night I was at a Bible study/staff meeting and we were talking about the leadership of Jesus. At one point we talked about Jesus’s flexibility and how He is able to go from one plan to another so easily. He says to the disciples to follow Him to quite place and then people started to gather in the same place. Jesus didn’t leave to find another quite place, but instead healed the sick and fed the crowd.
This is an opportunity for me to be flexible.
To be more like Jesus.
To surrender my plans and go with God’s plan.
To let go of earthly desires and run after Him.
To begin saying “Yes” even if every bit of me wants to say “No”
To challenge myself.
To learn to love the uncomfortable.
To trust God even though I’m unsure.
As difficult of a decision it was to make, I know that Q squad is exactly where I am supposed to be. And, as I’ve been reminded so many times, it’s not about squads—it’s about the Kingdom!
R squad-I love you all! You all have been such an inspiration and I know you will bring the Kingdom everywhere you go! I’ll be praying for everyone and blog stalking your journey!
Q squad-Hey! It’s a joy that I get to travel with you all! I absolutely can’t wait to meet my new family! I’m super excited for training camp and to do life with you all for 11 months!!!!!!!
