Most days I find myself longing to be in far of lands interacting with strangers who don’t know God. Longing to hold orphans in my arms whispering the love of their Father into their ears. Longing for an adventure more than driving my car across town. Longing to be in a community with high preference, high grace, high consideration, and high courage. Longing for Q squad. Longing for more of God.
With exactly one month left before I embark on my Kingdom Journey, I find myself wishing days away to be anywhere but here. Anywhere but work. Anywhere but home.
But a conviction has come over me recently. I only have one month left. This is where I have to consciously choose to be present here and now. Life is happening and I have just been floating through waiting for my big, adventurous journey to start.
And with that statement I realize how wrong I’ve been. I haven’t given myself whole-heartedly to anything in the last 7 months other than the Race.
I’ve been drifting.
Not leaving a mark.
Sneaking past.
But I don’t want that anymore. I only have one month left! One month with my family to celebrate all the things I’ll miss. One month to see my friends one last time. One month to pull off a VBS for work. One month to cross off everything on my to-do list.
One month to embrace here.
One month to embrace work.
One month to embrace home.
One month!
“Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don’t get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up when the time comes.” -Matthew 6:34, The Message
