Yesterday I found out that I have polycystic ovaries and an inverted uterus. On the way to launch, I was telling my sister who is in school to be a nurse about some symptoms which I thought not much about, and she said I must go to a doctor. So Friday I did, and yesterday I had an ultrasound, which revealed the diagnosis: cysts on both ovaries. The cysts combined are 87cc in volume which is 5.31 cubic inches.
It is so much information and so much to process. The anxiety I am feeling about it is causing pains in my body and I have been crying a lot. My mind is focused on all the worries:
“I’m afraid to take hormones (birth control) because my mom’s cancer was hormone based and her mother had cancer. If I don’t take it, I could be in danger and experience increased symptoms so this is NECESSARY, until I can get a hormone study done in the United States.”
“Oh no! Inverted uterus means probably pregnancy complications or infertility, increased back pain, and pain during sex, among other issues.”
“PCOS causes insulin resistance which leads to diabetes and makes it also harder to lose weight!!”
“I need to focus on eating healthy-less sugar/fried foods, and more vegetables and fruits. But on this world race, I am supposed to just eat what’s given to me.”
“It causes balding and also hair growth in unwanted places such as the face!”
“Women with PCOS experience more hunger after eating but have slow metabolism so actually need less calories. A very special diet is necessary.”
“PCOS affects my energy levels, so wanting to exercise is even more difficult.”
Y’all, this is an incurable diagnosis that will forever affect my life. I have to be very proactive to keep the symptoms under control and honestly, I am freaking out completely. Already doing my best to read through PCOS diet guides and informational sites.
Lord, please give me peace. Give me strength to not be tackled by PCOS, but to fight for my health. Lord, give me wisdom to take care well. What are you trying to teach me through this? Please take away my fear and anxiety. This isn’t my portion, and you’ve called me to do this Race, so please get me through this. Amen.
