We arrived in Ukraine several days ago and finally are moved
into our 2 bedroom apartment which we are sharing with B.L.I.N.G. Yes, that is 14 women in a 2
bedroom/1bathroom apartment. It is a lot
of fun, though I admit challenging. Our
teams are very different, yet very alike. I am enjoying getting to know the B.L.I.N.G. girls better. The GW’s are divided 4 of us in a bedroom and
4 girls in the office area. B.L.I.N.G.
has all 6 of their girls in one bedroom. We share the cooking, cleaning, grocery shopping, and tasks like that
around the apartment. I remember living
with 3 other girls in college and thinking it was way too crowded…oh how God
has changed me! I walk into our bedroom
and think nothing of the fact that there is barely any room to walk in, much
less room to do anything but sleep. I
think nothing of the sleeping mats lining the floor or the clothes tucked away
in whatever corner or drawer was available. Sarongs cover lamps as lampshades and the window seal becomes a cosmetic
table. I laugh at how different things
are. I laugh at how normal this is to me
and how I know I am going to long for and miss this. I don’t want to think that in only a few
short weeks I will be returning home, returning to a place so different from
this. I certainly did not think I would
ever embrace this, and now I find myself wondering how in the world I’m going
to live without it. What will life be
like without community? What will it be
lie to sleep in my own bed, alone, in my own room? What will it be like to have privacy, to have
quiet? What will it be like not having 7
amazing women to debrief my day with every evening? What will it be like to enter a face paced
world that is so concerned with itself there is little time for others? What will life be like when I come home? Is home even home anymore? If home is where the heart is…then I have 11
homes! Processing the return home…using
words that are not common to family and friends, being completely wrecked from being ordinary…my head spins around…my heart is ready to burst…I’m wrecked
alright…yes, I’m wrecked.
