My
ministry-seeing my future.
In Cambodia
God put the dream and desire in my heart to open a medical/dental clinic in the
slum areas. I began praying into what
that would mean, what it would look like, how it would possibly happen, and if
it was truly from God. I mean Cambodia? It’s hot, like REALLY hot, it’s Buddhist,
it’s poor, and it’s HOT! And it’s NOT home. But the more I prayed into it, the more God grew the desire and truly
began to give me a vision for it. So the
past few months I have been praying about it. Now, we come to Zimbabwe,
and I really had no real idea of what we would be doing. We were told we would be working with
displaced families and children at feeding centers. We were also told we would be doing chicken
farming. However, on our first real day
of doing ministry was a mobile medical clinic. It was held in a building which would be similar to a large barn with no
electricity in the states. So, here we
were, Felix and I seeing patients after patients, after patients until it was
to dark to see anymore. My teammates,
along with the ministry partners of the medical clinic were set up with
different jobs. It was amazing to see. During this time God spoke to my heart. He showed me that if I am obedient to His
word and to His will, as the people who began this ministry were, then I too
will see the fruit. God showed me that
this vision can absolutely come to pass! God showed me it’s not anything we do, but it’s everything He does. He showed me that man made things are not needed
or required. He showed me that what man
says is impossible is more than possible in Christ alone. Our next mobile clinic was on Wednesday. Over 100 people showed up. It was a much harder day. What we saw was harder. What we heard was harder. What we had to tell people was incredibly
hard. Constantly having to tell people
they need to be tested for HIV and knowing so many will not do it. Not just HIV, but so many sexually
transmitted diseases that will go untreated because they will not get tested. I shed even more tears that day. I had to take several breaks to just go
outside and cry. At the end of the day,
though, we had seen all of our patients and we were rejoicing in all that God
had done. And again God spoke to
me. Again God said to me, “I have called
you to this. I have called you to be my
center where I may bring physical, emotional, and spiritual healing to my
people. I have called you to do more
than sit. I have called you to go.” He showed me again how His provision
surpasses anything that anyone might think.
His provision, His will, and His
timing.
In my flesh, I have no idea what that means or looks like. I can not fathom how God is going to do
it. The good news, I don’t need to
know. What I need is simply to be
obedient to what He has called me to. So
finally, finally I can see the full vision of what God laid in my heart and I
am more than willing to step out in faith, the moment He says, “Go.”
“And the
Lord went before them by day in a pillar of cloud to lead them along the way,
and by night in a pillar of fire to them light, that they might travel by day
and by night. The pillar of cloud by day
and the pillar of fire by night did not depart from before the people.” Exodus
13:21,22
