It is midnight; I sit on the roof of our temporary home in Jacmel, Haiti. The moon is full, it is beautiful, the clouds are full and moving gently across the sky. Stars peek out every now and again. I listen to Natalie Grant sing, In Better Hands, my heart breaks and jumps at the same time. I look across the sky and see the mountains. Electricity has completely gone out. I sit in darkness other than my computer. And I know…I’m in better hands now. It’s like the breath of Jesus is right here in this room! I hear the soft sounds of the animals around and the music from the café and from neighboring homes. Not really sure what it’s saying, in my mind I imagine its Haitian worship music. God is giving me the most amazing cloud show. He loves me. This month in Haiti has been all about God romancing me. He is making me fall more in love with Him. I honestly feel like I’m on a date every night. I look forward to our dates. I look forward to spending time with my true love. He’s my husband. My lover. My best friend. My future and my present. This month has made me truly see for the first time that God is in love with me! He loves me and He’s in love with me. He desires to be my bridegroom! I have been in relationships before and I have certainly thought I was in love, but no, I have never experienced love like this! I am so madly in love with my Lord. I can’t stop smiling and all I want is to spend hours in bed with Him. I want to lay in His arms forever. I want to hear His sweet words. He brings me the clouds and the stars. He hand delivers the moon. One night last week I was staying up all night to check on one of our squad mates. He was sick and I was making sure he had his meds and just being “mom”. I made sure that I woke up every 2 hours to check on him. At 2:30 am I woke up and checked on my teammate, when I went to get back in bed I realized that the “light” I thought was on was actually the moon! God has supernaturally taken the moon from the place in the sky it should have been and placed it directly in MY window! It shined so bright and right on my face! Even my other squad mates talked about how bright it was and how that is NOT where the moon is suppose to be at 2:30 am! I love it! I asked God if He loved me right before that night and I told God that I really needed to hear it. I know that God loves me, but I was just so overwhelmed with everything going on that I just really needed to KNOW that God loves me…and He blew me away with stars, cloud shows, bringing the moon! It will never mean the same when a man says he’ll “hang the moon” for me, because I have actually had that happen!
Our ministry is great, but this is a month for God to just romance me and let me fall more in love with Him! I have met my true love on the race….His name is Jehovah Jireh…the Great I AM…..Alpha and Omega.
GOD!
