Using my voice

Well we are in Nicarauga and having a great first week already. God continues to teach me more every day. One of the many things I am learning is that I haven`t been using my voice lately when God is prompting me to speak. Yet to not speak when God tells you to speak is being selfish. I have had team mates and fellow squad mates tell me that God wants me to use my voice more. I have a lot of good things to say but fear keeps getting in the way. I am often afraid to speak for fear of what I say will be mistaken or not right. I look so much to other people for their approval that I am reminded it`s not what others think but what God thinks. Even if I am rejected by man I need to keeep going and use my voice anyways. God will never reject me. I have realized and am now learning that I have a lot to say to others. I can use my voice to further God`s kingdom.

Just last week I had felt convicted by God because I did not use my voice. When asked if anyone wanted to go visit the hospital or just go for a walk around the city I right away heard hospital come into my head. I looked around and realized that no one said anything and most people wanted to go walking. I just kept queit and didn`t voice what I had heard. We ended going to the hospital just to know where it was. Our contact showed us the outside and said we couldn`t go inside as he didn`t get permission yet. We continued walking around and talking to people outside the hospital. About 15 minutes later we were asked if we wanted to go inside and pray for people. We all wanted to pray and went inside. I thought God did want us to go here after all.

We had a choice of pediatrics, women, or men. I right away went to the pediatrics ward since I love children. I was so excited and sad at the same time for the sick children. We walked the halls and eventually went into a room with 5 children. One little girl had hurt her hand, another boy had burned himself, two boys who were friends, one had broken both of his wrists and the other boy hurt his eye. Then there was a little one month old baby. I right away felt drawn to go pray for the baby. I went over to the mom holding the little boy. I was hesitant at first as I have a hard time going to pray over people by myself. I rubbed his back for a few minutes and then put hands on him and prayed over him. I didn`t know what was wrong with him as I couldn`t communicate with the mom but I just prayed healing over his body. When I was done praying I stopped rubbing his back and right away the mom told me to keep rubbing his back as he was calm. I did and the little boy just calmed down and slept in his mom`s arms(hence I am the baby whisperer). That day I learned not only to voice my thoughts but also to step out in boldness. I am stepping out of my comfort zone and stepping into the unknown. And the end result was that 4 people got saved that day. Two women and two men. This I believe is why God wanted us to go there that day. To think we could have missed that great opportunity was a lesson I learned. Even though I didn`t speak that day God took care of it for me. I sometimes feel that way in my prayer life too. I don`t know what to say, but the holy spirit knows and he intercedes for us. Though my words fail my intercessor will never fail me. Romans 8:26 says “In the same way the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express“ I find that reassuring that no matter what the spirit will give us words. And when he does give us words we should use them for God`s glory and the benefit of others.

What a mighty God we serve!!!