Well it’s been awhile since I have blogged so I thought I would update on some thoughts I have had these past few weeks. As I sit and think about the upcoming World Race I get feelings of excitement, being scared and of course worried. I won’t lie it’s been a roller coaster of emotions and feelings. My thoughts are how do I get all of this stuff done that’s required on time? How do I pay my bills and pay everything off before I leave?
I have also been reflecting on the fact that we will be living “simply” and less materialistically. I have been planning on selling everything I have and using the money to go towards my trip. At times I think how am I going to do this and be OK with living so simply? I have to come to some conclusions that I need to get rid of stuff starting this month and learn to be content with what is left. I right away thought there is no way I can live without my TV and big comfy couch. I have a feeling I may need to sell those sooner then at the end. I am also selling my car and thinking what will I do without a car for a year? Well I guess I will learn that we don’t need all this stuff. It is just stuff and is temporary not permanent. I also had the thought that God is teaching me to get rid of “stuff” in my life so I can make more room for him alone. Wow that blew me away.
At times I also think that how in the world will this all happen? I start to stress about finances and more. But friends and God have been telling me to trust in God and it will all come together soon enough. I have come to realize that my life is now totally and completely surrendered to God. I have no control in the sense that whatever happens is up to God and his timing. What does a surrendered life look like? Well I don’t know all the answers but I do know that it means putting all your trust and leaning on God and no one else. When I prayed the prayer about a month ago that whatever God wants me to do I will do and live for him, I never thought it would mean going on the WR. God continues to amaze and surprise me time and time again.
