Greetings from the wonderful Arroyo Cano DR!!! I am blown away every day by God`s beauty surrounding us time and time again. I see his beauty everywhere that I look. Through this beauty God has again reminded me of my beauty in Christ. I am the bride and he is my groom. I may not feel beautiful on the outside but I know God sees each of us as his wonderful creation.
Just in the past couple of days I have been made aware of something that has struck a chord in me and I wanted to share. As I said earlier on I have been feeling such heaviness in my heart for these people. At the same time my heart has been heavy with alot of stuff that God has brought to my attention.
I was thinking this week of how much older I am then my team mates. I have to say that they are all very mature and very wise people so that hasn`t bothered me. I have learned a lot from them in the past couple of weeks. I will often ask “what is my purpose here and how can I pour into my team mates“ I have walked a different journey and am at a different place in my life then they are. This is good in and of itself. I want to be able to share that journey with them and offer them what they may need for their individual journeys. At the same time I started getting into the mindset that I have my friends back home and don`t really want to start over again. Why would I need new friends when I have my good friends already. I was finding it hard to trust and surrender all that to God. I am starting to let that mindset go and remember that these people are my family for the next 11 months.
I am at this moment being broken by God. While talking to someone one night they asked if I was starting to withdraw from others. When I said I was it was pointed out to me that was because I am in a time of brokenness. I thought wow God doesn`t waste any time breaking me does he. I was hoping that he would at least give me a few months lol. But he also reminded me that being in the brokenness is a good place to be right now.
I need to give everything to God and just surrender myself to what he is doing in and through me. My heart is to work with women and children of the world. Maybe I can start right here by pouring love into my women team mates. I pray for God`s strength as I pursue this in the coming months.
I have prayed to be broken and wrecked by God. Even though I may not feel the brokenness emotionally and may not grasp it all right now, I am being broken by God as we speak!!! Wow God is a God of such power and might. He knows the path he wants us to walk and we just have to follow it.
I have fallen in love with some of the sweet little girls here in the DR. As seen in the pictures above they bring such joy and life. While playing with them the other day I was reminded of God`s love. These children love as God loves us. Such child like faith.
Through all of my brokenness I kept hearing God remind me of this phrase. “through your brokenness I am here and will heal you“ I pray that God will reveal more of himself to me daily and continue to heal my brokenness.
I am so passionate and on fire for what God is doing in and through me. I want to be desperate for God and just be saturated with his love for me. What an awesome God we serve. Keep praying for the journey ahead for me and each one of my team mates. Even though the enemy has tried to get us down many times, victory has been won through Christ. I appreciate each of you and your prayers and love thus far. I couldn`t do this journey with out all of you. Much love sent your way and look forward to sharing more of my journey ahead.
