Why am I going on the Race?
Because God has placed his calling upon my life to go and spread His love. I’ve had a lot of people ask me, “Regan, why are you leaving EVERYTHING behind for 9 months? Are you crazy?!”
Of course I am willing to follow Jesus for 9 months all across the world… He’s the love of my life! I’m crazy in love, and I want the whole WORLD to know it!
His love is what drew me out of the depths of depression.
His love is what broke my pornographic chains.
His love is what forgave me every time I turned away from Him, every time I yelled at my family, every time I lied, every time I was too afraid to share the name of Jesus with someone who needed Him.
God I’m so in love with you I don’t even know what to do with myself! How on earth can I possibly hold back that once-in-a-lifetime love from a fellow human being whose soul is crying out for rescue?
God has made it known to me that He is going to grow me and my calling to be a missionary for His kingdom during this trip… He is going to teach me what REAL LOVE is! Holy crap I can’t WAIT!!!!
Throughout my life God has pulled me closer to Him…
I cry when I see someone else crying, I stare horrified at the news filled with incomprehensible suffering, I can’t help but notice and take on people’s pain. At first, this gift of empathy that God gave me overwhelmed and crushed me. I couldn’t shake the feeling that I had to do something, that I had to save the world and every single person who was suffering…
But I was wrong.
It’s not me who is doing the saving, but Jesus. He’s the one who died for literally all of mankind’s terrible horrible crap.
After that revelation finally hit me, I finally let God take the reins from me, and I gave Him all control over my empathetic gift, my prophetic gift, my salvation, etc. I can’t tell you how freeing it is to have that burden lifted from my shoulders.
Today, if I pass by someone who is crying, or a friend who is having a family issue, or even a stranger who needs help… I let the Holy Spirit take over, not me. I will listen for His voice to guide me. If He whispers in my ear,
Go and hug that woman. Let her know she is not alone. Show her My Love.
Then I go, and I walk in His light.
