I’m still not sure how I got here so fast, but here I am, and it’s the end of the race. I know they say that time flies when you’re having fun, and many moments were, but what about the moments that weren’t? The moments when I was so exhausted, the moments when I was stretched and uncomfortable, The moments when I was so homesick and just cried longing to hug my mom or spend time with my friends, the moments when I questioned if God was even there… or even real at all, the moments when I just wanted to quit. I can’t tell you the countless times I just wanted to give up and go back to my mundane life, but it was these moments that taught me what true faith is. These were the moments that grew me the most and taught me so much about clinging to the Lord and always being obedient even when I’m blind to the outcome and the fruits that it will bear.
I asked God to break my heart for what breaks his, and he did. It was so difficult to see and truly feel the brokenness in this world. A world where many people don’t know Jesus, where there are families living with nothing, children that are malnourished and sick, people who are so bitter because of the hurt that’s occurred in their life. Then something amazing happened, I began to see joy in the brokenness. This is because I asked God to show me the joy that brings Him joy.
Laughing and singing with women who were once enslaved by sex trafficking in Cambodia. Tucking orphans into bed after Friday night movies when they fall asleep on our laps in Africa. Singing Christmas carols, worshipping and dancing on Sunday morning at church with locals in Honduras. Praying with and discipling people my age in Guatemala. Kisses on the cheek and neck for the cooks every single morning followed by an “I love you so much” in Africa. These are moments that brought me great joy, His great joy. There are so many more moments and I could keep writing on and on about all of them, but I’ll leave it up to you to ask me about them.
I saw hope in the midst of brokenness. I experienced deep love. I watched chains be broken and thrown off. There was joy in places I thought would only be overcome with sadness and brokenness.
I know that God could save this world in one instant. He could reach down and in one second there would be no poverty, no sickness, no pain. But instead, He called us. He calls us to be His hands and feet, to leave the world behind and follow Him. This is why I’ll spend the rest of eternity living for My God. He’s called you, are you going to say yes? Just do it, it’ll change your life!
God radically changed my heart. In the past nine months I’ve experienced a lot of His goodness, love, patience, joy, peace, kindness, and self control. I’ve experienced my God in more profound and beautiful ways, and that’s because I allowed Him to guide me, I let Him in, and I said yes.
I look ahead to my future in full confidence that He is the same God here as He is at home, as He is anywhere. He is a miracle working God, just believe it, and say yes.
Thanks for reading and for following my journey. God bless you
Love, Bekah
