I have a question…
How is everyone doing with their accountability partners?
When I started the World Race, we were asked to come up with a list of prayer partners as well as an accountability partner. It took me a little while to come up with this. I am the type of person who likes to keep my insecurities to myself. I don’t like to cry in front of others and I don’t want them to see my short-comings. When coming up with an accountability partner, one person came to mind. When I asked her if she would do that for me, she asked me what she needed to do and if she needed to commit a time to it. She didn’t seem too excited to be doing this, but I stuck with it. I wanted to meet once a week. Months later, I still need an accountability partnerwho will follow through with me (I know I am bad at that too). I am still holding all of my short-comings and all of my insecurities inside and God is breaking me. Everyday, I get more and more emotional. Most people have never seen me cry, but I want to cry just about everyday. Not just sad tears, but happy-nervous-excited tears as well.
Yesterday I talked to another friend whom I saw come to the Lord a few years ago and asked her if she would like to be my accountability partner. She accepted and I think is very excited about it. I know that she will be great. She has blossomed into a beautiful woman of God since she accepted Him as her Savior. It will still be very hard for me to open up at first, but I know that she will follow through. She is a planner and has me in her schedule for every Friday after work. I feel as though God opened this door for me and I am ready to take that step forward as he continues to break me. Please pray that I leave my pride behind and pour out to her and be real with myself.
Preparing for this race is not easy, but we were never promised that it would be. We have to give up lots of things, including our pride. It’s not just about ‘stuff’ anymore. It is about physically and spiritually changing for the Race of life that God has us on.
There is a song that we used to sing in youth group my senior year that goes like this:
I won’t stop running, until I’ve won the race.
I won’t stop praying, until I see his blessed face.
I will not settle for a life of compromise.
I’ll just keep pressing towards the prize.
Until I see Him in the skies.
I am not sure where the song originated but it is a song that keeps me going. Some days, I feel like I am walking and dragging my feet. But, I know that I need to run towards that prize waiting in Heaven!
~B
