If you didn’t read yesterday’s post, click here to read it first. Though it’s not imperative, this is a series, and I’ll be referencing things I brought up yesterday in both this post and the next one.
Like my running pace had hit a plateau, other things in my life had also hit plateaus – one of them being my support account. I’ve been frustrated this past month or so because, although gifts were coming in, it seemed like my account wasn’t actually growing.
I started questioning God, asking if I’d really heard Him right – that this is where I’m supposed to be and what I’m really supposed to be doing. I started freaking out a little bit, thinking that I might not actually hit my support deadline (it’s $10,000 by the end of January, in case you were wondering, and then I’m in need of about $1500/month while we’re in India). I started doubting that what I’m doing is actually going to make a difference. I mean, it’s easy to get caught up in the whole “I’m just in the office going to meetings and reading books I don’t like and having conversations that don’t seem to be going anywhere” mentality.
(the thermometer on the left shows how much money has actually come in to my support account. the one on the right is my current projected amount with what people have said they're going to give)
And then something happened! I’m actually not sure what caused this shift, but suddenly things started coming together again. A friend from college, someone I haven’t really kept in touch with at all, told me that she and her husband wanted to support me monthly. And another friend posted some gracious and encouraging words on facebook (to read them, click here – she let me re-post it to our team blog). And Monday evening when I checked my support account, it had $625 more in it. $625! In one day!
I’m continually blown away by how GOOD God is. How much He loves me. How much He cares about my every need. Sometimes He does things like this – He takes me close and whispers in my ear and says “I’m proud of you. I believe in what you’re doing. I adore you.” He takes me from a place of worry and doubt and reminds me that His timing is perfect, His plans are incomparably good, His Word is true, and He is faithful. He has set me in this place for this time and this season, and He is going to bring everything to pass that He has said.
So while I’m still not 100% supported, I take comfort in the fact that He provides. God’s ways are higher than mine, and He doesn’t want me to worry about even the smallest thing. And that, my friends, is another small victory!
Stay tuned for part 3 tomorrow – it has to do with freedom!
