Jesus, I’m overwhelmed by You. How is it possible for the Creator of Heaven and Earth to care about me and my needs? I am hesitant to bring my request and to confess my need. As each day goes by, I see my bank account dwindling. My current monthly expenses as well as needs out on the field (food, medical expenses, toiletries, etc.) are quickly decreasing my bank account.
Here’s the truth… I know you called me on the World Race. When I knew I had to raise $17,700, I was hesitant with having to fundraise, but I believed that you would meet that need and you did! I was fully funded in just a few short months. As I began to prepare for the race, the extra expenses added up. I didn’t have the funds to pay for my gear and all the vaccines, so I put it on my credit card. Then, there was the unexpected dental work that needed to be done before I left the race. I didn’t have money in savings, so I chose again to put it on my credit card.
So here I am… $15,000 of debt acquired in less than two months right before I leave on the race. Jesus, I am worried and uncomfortable asking for help. Although I am still unsure of the details, I know You are calling me into long-term missions. As we were riding on the school bus two days ago, the joy of Your calling me into long term missions was quickly overshadowed by fear and doubt. How can I continue to be out on the field when I have so much debt? I can’t cover even my monthly expenses now and the numbers overwhelm me.
I have lived most of my adult life overwhelmed by debt. Money has always caused anxiety. Several months before launch (after years and years of working on it) I had eliminated $42,000 of debt and only had one $8,000 school loan remaining. I felt comfortable heading on the race knowing that my monthly expenses would be approximately $140 a month. I had enough in my bank account to still pay my bills while on the race. I was so excited to finally feel as though there was an end to the struggle. And then comes the unexpected (life).
Jesus, You know my needs even before I bring them to You. I have a need that seems too big to ask for although I know you can do anything. Even though You are constantly faithful, I still doubt. When it comes to my financial need, I don’t feel worthy enough to ask for a miracle and the help of others.
But here is Your truth. Jesus, there is no prayer too big or too small for You. And You do care for my every need. You don’t want me to be concerned and overwhelmed by debt. You have brought me here to love on Your children and spread Your kingdom.
So here I am, Lord. I come to You and humbly ask… please provide for my every financial need. Please eliminate my debt while on the field. Please continue to provide funds so I may continue to do the work that You have called me to do. I pray that I would be a blessing to others and that, by asking for help, they may feel welcomed into giving and partnering with me. I pray that I would not be a burden, but a joy and encourager to everyone I meet. I thank you for this adventure You have called me on. I am so grateful for Your love, Your mercy, Your grace, Your never-ending abundance and pursuing. This is an extraordinary life. I wait expectantly and I love You.
This has been my prayer to the Lord. So my friends, if you feel led to give please donate to my GoFundMe page (https://www.gofundme.com/5j7aa4-my-world-race). I’m looking for one or two people who are willing to donate $500, 10 people who are willing to donate $100, 8 people who are willing to donate $75, 5 people who are willing to donate $50 and/or any other amount anyone is willing to provide. I am so appreciative of all your love and support and I truly could not have made it this far without you all. Love you very much! Xo, R
