Doubt and Trust
Those are the two words that keep going through my head. This past week has been a whirlwind. As many of you know last Thursday a job opportunity was presented to me. The opportunity was to be a part-time art teacher at a local elementary school. And I was beyond ecstatic. I even called the principal of the school that same day. I thought this was it. This was the perfect job for me.
But then the waiting came… I had to have all my references in before I could have an interview. Four days later NONE of my education references had come through. And doubt started to creep into my mind. Maybe this isn't the job for me. Maybe I am not the one.
Why would God present this opportunity to me and then take it away?
While all this was happening… I had my wisdom teeth taken out on Monday. Throughout the week, the pain had gradually gotten worse and worse. By Thursday, I was done with it and in tears (literally). I went to the doctor office against their wishes. And he informed me that I had bitten my cheek while it was numb and I have a really bad ulcer. There was nothing He could do about the pain and the ulcer would heal in its on timing. My thoughts… Well that stinks. But I will praise God cause it could have been dry socket and much worse.
Throughout this time I haven't been sleeping well at night (It is bad when pain trumps ambien). So last night I didn't take a sleeping pill just regular pain killers. And I did some serious talking with God instead. I ask Him for rest. Rest that could only come from Him alone. Rest and renewal of my body, mind, and heart. We talked for a while… and then I slept. And I slept through the whole night. Wait… Did that really just work… I simply had to ask my Father and He gave it to me. Umm… Thank you. Forgive me for my unbelief before. (Now that was just last night.)
This morning was much of the same routine. Breakfast… Coffee… God time. When the 30 minutes of God time was up, I felt the urge to continue reading His Word. I felt I needed to be with God and that He had more for me than this simply reading. Besides what was I going to do instead…. watch TV, get on the internet, check to see if my references had come in, etc. So I decided to continued to be with God. As I was reading the Word, the home phone rang. I thought that's odd who would be calling at this time. I answered…. AND it was the principal asking if I was still interested in the job opportunity. Of course!!! Now this morning (Friday) I had basically given up on the job and figured they had already hired someone for that position. But God proved me differently. I told the principal that I was still interested and I now have an interview with the school on Monday at 10am. God is good! And I praise Him for this interview and opportunity. Thank you, God, forgive me ever doubting your plan. I trust you with my future. Open up the doors for me.
So that is my current story. Please pray for me on Monday at 10am. Pray that God's will be done. (Ohhh and for my references becuase I am still missing one of them.) Thanks!
