It is finally sinking in–finally the thoughts of leaving are leaping and bounding through my brain, through my every fiber. The tears are welling up in my eyes. I can feel both the joy of the months to come, and the parallel sadness of missing my family. My family is my home. We don’t need four walls to define that word, HOME. We know each other to the core. There are no boundaries to encompass our love to the strong unit we have created, or I should say that God gave us. Don’t get me wrong we are the same as any family with individual and corporate flaws. We come broken, like shattered glass, each with our own secrets to be uncovered.
Right now I must write to my family to say…
I LOVE YOU. DON’T EVER DOUBT THAT!!!
Driving home tonight from a movie with my older brother all these thoughts came and invaded my mind. “How am I suppose to live without my family for a year?” All I wanted to do was cry, but my brother was in the car with me. I wanted to seem strong. I figured he might think it a bit weird if I out of the blue started sobbing.
Then out of my radio came this song:
If you never leave home, never let go
You’ll never make it to the great unknown till you
Keep your eyes open, my love
So tell me you’re strong, tell me you see
I need to hear it, can you promise me to
Keep your eyes open, my love- Need to Breath Lyrics
It was a call to keep my eyes open, to see things in a new light. I have to leave my home—my family. I must let go because what the Lord has in store is the great unknown. Maybe you heard His calling is easy, but I am here to say it’s not! I am here to say sometimes it means letting go of something or someone you care about more than anything, for me it means the race, for you maybe it means moving a few hundred miles away from your home and working with underprivileged children. However, I don’t know. I can’t tell you your steps, but I can point you to the one that directs them. Don’t be afraid of letting go to walk with the Lord. Again it’s not easy, but it’s worth it!
We fear the great unknown, but it is the path that we should take. It is the fathers will for us to step out in faith leaving behind what is known and what is comfortable. As I write I not only write to those who will possibly read this, but I write to myself to say,
“YOU MUST STEP OUT IN FAITH TO WALK INTO THE GREAT UNKNOWN.”
