Recently someone asked me, “Rebecca, do you believe you’re God’s favorite?” That question baffled me. How could the creator of the universe who cares for 7 billion people care for me that deeply? Could a God so perfect be that intimately involved in a life so messy? This one conversation opened my eyes to a bunch of false things I’d internalized about the Lord. But freedom can’t be found until you’ve acknowledged the lies you’re believing, so let’s dive a little deeper-
1. I believed God couldn’t be broken over the things I was broken about. A friend told me to imagine that every time I cried, the Lord was there too holding me and crying over my hurt. I just couldn’t fathom this…He cared for me yes, but I felt that in feeling my pain it would be getting His hands dirty
2. I believed Jesus already died on the cross for my sins and because this happened thousands of years ago and He is now restored to His rightful place in Heaven, there could be no way He would stoop down now to be on my level and feel what I feel.
3. I believed human relationships brought more comfort than my relationship with the Lord. The church talked about being the bride of Christ, but I figured being the bride of a man would be better because they could share in all life brought my way and have eyes just for me.
Here’s the thing. The Lord wrecked these lies. Here’s why-
Yes God is perfect, and He died on the cross past tense, but God my Love is willing to accompany me REAL TIME into my life’s events. He is able to have eyes just for me because on the cross He traded His very life for MINE. He took on my every sucky moment as His own. As His own. My hurt, my guilt, my pain, my LIFE for that matter. Now think about how many moments I live as a broken human being that His love had to cover on the cross…. In reality, all 24 hours, 1,140 minutes, and 86,400 seconds of the day I am a sinner. So it’s not just a list of sins you’ve done that Christ died for, it’s your WHOLE ENTIRE LIFE that He took on. That’s how He’s able to love me in a way the most intimate human relationship would- caring, and feeling, and loving all. He feels it deeper than any human ever would because it’s His.
Together in heart. I want to live my life in a way that on the cross will cause Him the least amount of pain. This has changed my daily walk. Me & my Maker share life. The coolest thing is that I recently found out Rebecca symbolically means bride of Christ. I accept that truth today.
