I frequently ask God why we have feelings. A lot of times they get in the way and make making decisions really difficult. They can also be uncomfortable especially if you’re asked to talk about them. Recently I have been experiencing all the feels. From sad to happy to excitement to paralyzing fear. How easy would life be if we could just only use logic, and not have to worry about how our hearts felt.
I happen to be a big feeler. What I mean by that, and some of you might relate, is that I can’t make any decision without processing my feelings first. Well quite frequently my feelings lie, and get me into all kinds of trouble, if I’m not using discernment. A pastor that I admire always says, “the scene of the crime is in your mind.” This statement is so true. So often we have a feeling. Then we think about that feeling, and then act on it. The Bible says to take every thought captive and make it obedient to him.
Preparing for change is hard, and brings up a lot of emotions that aren’t always welcomed. The Race is mostly unknown territory, and there is a lot of room for fear and doubt, if you let it in. I have very little control over my circumstances, and that is a vulnerable place to be. I have some opportunities to allow God to really teach me things in that place. The challenge is to not run, but to be still and feel. Then sort through the feelings and make sure that I’m listening to the Holy Spirit and not letting my feelings lie to me. It is so important to learn the Holy Spirit voice over our feelings. The Holy Spirit does not deceive us, he strengthens us.
As the final days of being home are flying by and I’m saying goodbye. I have to remember that the feelings of fear and doubt are fleeting. They are the opposite of faith, and exactly what the devil wants. I have to be proactive about proclaiming truth, and remind myself that God has called me on this mission. He will equip me and provide for me. There is nothing to fear because He has already paved the way for us. He is stirring up people’s hearts that we have not yet met. We can not lose because He is on our side, and he has asked us to go win more souls for Him.
