Have you ever been in a situation where you find yourself stuck in a spectrum between good vs. evil? Good, the thought of being positive and actually following through it. Evil, basically giving up. Yeah, I'm sure you have, it's part of life, right?
I'm in one now. As I try to brainstorm over how I am to write my support letter or what to say in my support letter, I find myself thinking how will writing a support letter even work, how will reading a support letter from someone you haven't seen in a while be beneficial to the readers, how will my support letter reach to the people, will my letter even be accepted, will people even consider reading my letter? blah bla-blah bla-blah bla-blah…pretty much my flesh just wants to give up by continuing to think over such thoughts, considering that I've never really written a support letter. So, trusting in Him was beginning to fly over the window and into a ditch.
On the other end of the rope, I can hear the Holy Spirit saying, "It's okay, don't worry. Trust in me and I will take care of you," and feel a sense of warmth gently flow over my restless nerve and worried heart. I interrupted my brainstorming by looking at a friend's comment on my facebook wall regarding the mission trip and I responded back. During my reply, I find myself looking up verses in the bible about not worrying so much and rather pray about it while keeping the truth in mind in Philippians 4:6-9, not feeling left out because God cares about each person in Matthew 10: 29-31, and being reminded that Jesus is actually there looking out in Mark 4:35-41.
All I feel like wanting to do is completely fall to my knees with arms spread out and say, "I'm done, this ain't workin' out." I'm basically forgetting that writing a support letter isn't my only chance to reach out, it's an introduction to my purpose for going on this mission hoping that people will be touched and sense the Holy Spirit work in them.
As the negative thought continue to linger in the back of my mind, I'm even more motivated to send my letters out fast to share to people my cry for God's purpose for me, as well as for my readers. Or at least, get the word out by voice and hope that people will respond, in reference to a new friend who did just that and received an immense amount of donation without having to work hard on sending out their letters. Rather, my friend believes that they are being taught about provision and instead let God do all the work.
For my other World Racers out there in the same boat, I pray that y'all get something out of this and be as motivated as I am or my friend in glorifying the Lord.
