Its 3:40am I'm on a train leaving NYC and I’m thinking this is crazy, how did I get here….
In the past years I really held back many ways just because I was afraid to fail. Seeing it now it crippled me from so many things God wanted to do in my life. But it wasn't a fear issue, it was actually a trust issue. I was not trusting God with my future. I said i trusted him but i really didn’t. I never decided on anything because I wanted to be 100% sure this was right decision and it was what God wanted for me. He is in control of every single detail of our life. Going on the race was definitely not on my plans, especially raising 16K really scared the crap out of me. When i bumped into the world race (one night searching online) I really felt a calling to do it, I thought about it for a few days and there were so many obstacles and hurdles to overcome in order for it to be even possible. I was hesitant but I decided to go! I decided to trust and take a step of faith, just as Peter did when Jesus was calling him to walk on waters. Gods plans are waaay better than anything I can plan for myself. It has definitely been an emotional roller coaster, in this season of my life my faith has been truly stretched, but God has shown up in every little detail. Now I'm leaving my home to start this God planned journey.
In this season I have truly found joy in trusting God even though i do not know what tomorrow holds. Our God is mysterious Job 11;7-9 says “Can you find out the deep things of God? Can you find out the limit of the Almighty? It is higher than heaven—what can you do? Deeper than Sheol—what can you know? Its measure is longer than the earth and broader than the sea.” This mystery is what makes life adventurous, exciting and totally dependent on Him. If we knew what is going to happen tomorrow our decisions wouldn't require faith. God has given us free will to decide. When making decisions in life it should always be out of our trust and love for him. In this journey called life let us seize every opportunity to advance his kingdom and make Jesus goodness and love known. No matter what you decide to do, do it for him!. The bible says “Whatever you do, work at it wholeheartedly as though you were doing it for the Lord and not merely for people” (Colossians 3:23) .In less than 2 weeks I leave to Guatemala which is my first country. I'm already 53% funded for my trip and all those “obstacles and hurdles” are now victories.
I was doing a devotional a couple of months ago from my church and something really spoke to me…
“Go into your world and speak Jesus. Do everything readily and cheerfully-no bickering, no second guessing allowed. Go into the world uncorrupted, a breath of fresh air in this squalid and polluted society. Provide people with a glimpse of good living and of the living God. Carry the light-giving Message into the night so i’ll have good cause to be proud of you on the day that Christ returns. You’ll be living proof that I didn't go to all this work for nothing”
I will like to encourage you to step out in faith in your everyday, don't be afraid just trust. He is for you and in control, God will show up in amazing ways. I have decided to live every single second with purpose, no more holding back. I will take this close to my heart for this journey. When things might not seem the way I expect I will serve God readily and cheerfully for He is in control!
