I've often thought that life is like that book, "Going on a Bear Hunt." In it, the kids go on hunt for bears and encounter obstacle after obstacle. Each time they meet one, they say, "Can't go over it, can't go under it, we'll have to go through it." It's like that with life; so many times we don't get to choose the troubles and trials that come and often, there's no way around but through.
In the next 2 days, Im about to put the final nail in the coffin of my past. They say over and over agin in this Book.. "Were Not scared!" But who am I kidding … Im terrified.
Im about to go back into court , to face My lion, My bear and My Giant all at the same time. Im about to get really vulnerable and real. I sense God has done enough healing I can finally write about my past a little bit. For the last Year and a half, anytime the situation about my past came up, Id go off alone or change the subject. The fact that im even writing about it now tells me God has done a tone of work and Healed a good portion of my battered, bruised, Body ,mind and spirit. Its been months since the last trial. The one where someone I loved very much got sentenced to 5 months in jail. In 2 days I go back for further charges against him. I fear that He may get out early and Get out of what hes done. That there will be no Justice and Ill go back to looking over my shoulder and fearing for my life. But Why am I thinking This way! …. Cause its Lies of the enemy !!
I know in My spirit God has heard my Pleas, my cries and decress to the court of Heaven. And I know He is hiding me under the shadow of his wings. Id love to crawl back into bed and put the covers back up over my head and just not deal with the bear like they do at the end of this book… BUT I CANT DO THAT THIS TIME! I have to face this Giant Cause In FACT I already have the Victory over the Bear and the Lion! I want Peace and restoration for not only me… But mostly for the man that did so much damage to me.
1 Samuel 34-37 David said, “I’ve been a shepherd, tending sheep for my father. Whenever a lion or bear came and took a lamb from the flock, I’d go after it, knock it down, and rescue the lamb. If it turned on me, I’d grab it by the throat, wring its neck, and kill it. Lion or bear, it made no difference—I killed it. And I’ll do the same to this Philistine pig who is taunting the troops of God-Alive. God, who delivered me from the teeth of the lion and the claws of the bear, will deliver me from this Philistine.”Saul said, “Go. And God help you!”
Usually, when we’re reading this story, we’re so focused on David killing the Giant, Goliath … we miss perhaps the most important part of the story . As David (GOD’S ANOINTED!) was, minding his own business, watching his sheep, the DUMBEST lion and the DUMBEST bear in the world made the foolish mistake of trying to steal one of his sheep for supper, that would be their last mistake! David killed THEM!! Trials come to all of us … even God’s anointed.None of us are strangers to the lions and bears of troubles and trials in this life! The lions and bears of troubles and trials are Gods blessings and opportunities in disguise.Often the thing that strikes the chords of the deepest fears within us is the thing that gives us the greatest strength! The lion and the bear prepared David for his greatest moment of triumph. No lion, no bear, no victory over Goliath! BUT YOU CANT JUST GO OVER IT OR UNDER IT , YOU HAVE TO GO THROUGH IT WITH GOD! even if that means Your squeezing the crap out of HIS HAND for dear life!
The lions and the bears come into each of our lives. None of us are exempt.The only way to know strong faith is to endure great trials. I have learned my faith by standing firm through severe testings, especially this last 2 years! Cause its been a process of God restoring back all that was taken and all that i did while I wasnt following him to the fullness I should have been. That's the Price I paid, But It was coming to the revelation It wasnt MY PRICE >>>> IT WAS HIS!!! and I wouldnt change a thing! And Gods GRACE is so BEAUTIFUL and His Mercy Is new Everyday in Everyway!
We all must fight our own battles.We all bear the scars of the conflict and trail.The lions and the bears come into each of our camps.
BUT…. regardless of the name of the lion and your bear … if you stand and fight the good fight of faith … THEY ARE MERELY GOD’S BLESSINGS IN DISGUISE … PREPARING YOU FOR YOUR FINEST HOUR, WHICH IS YET TO COME!
My lion and Bear is fear… Fear that God is Not in control of the whole situation…. WELL THATS A LIE!!! CAUSE GOD IS !! HE IS!!!! HE IS IN TOTAL CONTROL!!!
The reason why its so hard to give it all over….. Is cause its one of the last Ties to my old life, old way of thinking, old way of living, old way of expecting . old . old old !!!
AND HES DOING A NEW THING!!! So its out with the old and In with the new. I Desire more than anything to move forward with Gods Good and Perfect plans for my life. His Hope and His Future!
Im so done with having this old skeleton lurking over my head, that needs to go back in its casket once and for all. I have learned so much from all this though.
I have learned That My father, my savior, my lover, my Jesus Loves me so much!
Loves me so much that he knows the hairs on my head.
Loves me so much that he has collected all my tears in a jar.
Loves me so much that he is a Prince and He would never hurt me, lie to me, betray me ,or raise a hand in anger.
He loves me so much that He died for me and took on all my Pain.
He loves me so Much That He will never let my heart , mind or body get ripped apart ever again.
He loves me So much that He has hand dipped my ripped and torn heart in his blood and turned it to Gold, Never to be chipped or cracked or broken the way It once was again.
He loves me so Much that He calls me Worthy to be his bride and He gets down on one knee and says, "Darling will you marry me? and be my beloved, and Let me lavish you with a love that Only I can satisfy. "
And Jesus waits for my answer to be YES!!! JESUS Ill marry you!!!… And He exchanges My engagement ring for a wedding ring all in the same moment.
And I lay on his chest, and he strokes my hair.
He calms my fears and He hands me a sword. He tells me Hes killed My Lion and My bear , Hes Killed THE FEAR! ….
And he says" Daughter……. : Now CHOP OFF THE GIANTS HEAD!"
In 2 days I will do that, and Ill be riding off into the sunset with my Jesus, My prince charming, my knight in shining armor. Cause thats what My Lover, My Jesus Does. He Makes all things New. And He loves me and The Man who once hurt me . And when I go into that court room the fear will be dealt with, the Giant will be slain . Gods Love is Just all over that Man that I used to love.
I'll be able to look him in the face with no Fear and Bless him, cause thats my fathers heart. I know Im in Poppas hands. I know that God will do what he has to keep me safe. If that means the man that I once loved stays behind bars, like Paul did , til his heart breaks for Jesus, thats Gods will .If God decided to let him out….Ill just keep holding his hand in faith , hope, love and trust!
God is my refuge and my strength. I'll keep abiding under the shadows of his wings. Jesus is safe and he will see me Through, No matter what happens in that court room. God has a plan,I trust him. I trust him. I trust him.
No more Fear in Jesus Name <3 Its time for a new chapter and whole new book! , and that includes a journey across the globe to share Gods love some with women who feel the same way I did 2 years ago. Its all For the Glory. God turns what was bad into something Beautiful. And that something Beautiful is Me ….. ( So cant go over it, cant go under it…. time to bulldoze through it !
Either way There Is VICTORY!!!
" Cast your cares on the LORD and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous fall" Psalms 5:22
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GFOUKU2djlk
Love yall Peace , love , Grace and heavenly Bass!!! I feel a weight lifted just from typing out all that lol PEACE YES hahaha <3 shalom
I posted the story link above in case anyone wants to watch it <3
