I stepped out of Guatemala on December 2nd, endured many hours of waiting in the airport and 23 incredibly long hours of flight time, then finally stepped into Thailand on December 4th. The transition was exhausting and heavy. The moment I left Guatemala ground the attacks and obstacles immediately rose up and they did not cease. Not only was I sick, which brought me to the weakest point physically since I left Georgia, but also I felt homesick, which brought me to the lowest point emotionally. On top of it all, I was raised up to be leader of my team for the next season(which is an exciting blessing but at the time it felt like a burden that piled on top of all the drastic changes during this transition). At first, this all took a toll on how I was feeling spiritually because I was so weary and drained. Then I was reminded..
”I am blessed when I am at the end of my rope; with less of me
there is more of God and His rule” Matthew 5:3
I also realized that God has insanely incredible plans in store for our ministry in Thailand, and Satan felt threatened. Satan fears what the Lord WILL do through my team, so he was trying to discourage me. He held an ugly grip on my emotions and perspective for a few days. Those dark few days were painful, but I have never been so desperate for Jesus. So then Jesus did what he does best: He rescued me. I experienced comfort from My Provider and restoration from my Healer. I experienced true dependency on My Father. I loved it, and the Lord revealed to me..He loved it too. My Father enjoys taking care of me. Our God loves to love His children! How indescribable is that!
The following days were full of rest, peace and replenishment. He refreshed my passion for Himself and ignited an excitement for these next months in Thailand.
Our ministry in Thailand is absolutely unbelievable! Read all about it here, on my oh so wonderful teammate’s blog.
