I’m under attack. Ever since I committed to go on the World Race, the devil has been trying to knock me off track. For a while, I was fighting back with all I had – I knew that my faith was bigger than my fear and that God would conquer anything I put in His hands.
But as time has passed, the devil hasn’t stopped. He’s stolen friendships, relationships, my joy and happiness, my comfort, my sleep, my nerves, my time, my focus and the list goes on. He’s destroying my strength, feeding me lies, distracting me from my goals, filling me with anxiety and fear. And I’m on the edge. I’m discouraged and full of questions – looking back and looking forward and I don’t know where to turn.
My outlet for the last four years is no longer in my life for me to seek comfort and advice. In the past, I turned to things of the world to find comfort when I felt alone, but those are no longer welcome in my life – so I turn to Jesus. But I still lack answers, comfort and a solution to my problems. The devil is blocking my relationship with Christ.
I am strong enough in my relationship with Jesus to know that He is always with me, but I can’t grasp why He isn’t taking this pain and misery away when I know He has the power to do so. I’ve always found growth during the dark times of my life but it’s hard to use that as a fighting force for every day of my life.
So what do I need from you? From my friends and supporters? The answer is prayer.
I need prayer for comfort, for strength, for guidance, for financial support for the Race, for wisdom, for my nightmares to cease and the anxiety to flee so that I can sleep a peaceful night, for happiness, joy and love from the Lord so I stop seeking it from others, for clarity regarding my future. I need prayer that I will gain more financial supporters for my mission trip – many of my squadmates are close to being 50% funded compared to my mere 4%, which adds so much stress to each and every day.
I’m not giving up or backing down to the enemy. But I need prayer warriors on my side. So if you’re reading this, please join me in prayer for these things.
XO
