I’m going to be honest with you, right now I’m a little angry and I feel like I’m about to fall apart. It’s not all fun and games out here. I’m not always hugging orphans, evangelizing or eating fruitcake with church friends. I’m not always riding motos or hiking beautiful mountains.
The Race is hard. It sucks when your legs are so swollen from bug bites that you can’t see your ankles (my teammates now refer to cankles as “Rachel ankles” or “rankles” lol), it sucks when your team doesn’t get along and it really sucks when your grandma finds out she has cancer and you can’t be there. I know that she is going through so much right now. This isn’t easy for my grandpa either and I know it has to be wearing on them both.
Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.- Matthew? ?11?:?28-29?
God has been teaching me a lot about finding rest in Him. When I am exhausted in every way imaginable and want nothing but to go home, all I have to do is be still. He will continue to fight for me when I am too weak to move forward on my own.
The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still. – Exodus 14:14
I know that I am here for a reason and that I am growing a learning more right now than I would anywhere else. I just have to take the good with the bad.
God will give me more than I can handle, it’s going to happen. But I don’t have to do it alone. God is doing amazing things and I am so thankful to be a part of it. I’m thankful for the opportunity to grow in Him and to love on His people, but life doesn’t stop just because you’re on the Race. This isn’t a year of adventure and bliss. It’s real life and real life is hard.
There have been so many times over the last couple of months when all I’ve wanted is to hug my grandparents. I want that right now more than ever. I’m thankful to be part of a family that puts God first and regardless of how much they may want me to be home, they would never even consider asking me to give up the opportunity to serve God in this way. Grandma and Grandpa have always been my biggest supporters and encouragers. I honestly couldn’t be more blessed by the family God has given me. It’s killing me to be away from home during this time, but I know I’m where I need to be for right now.
Please keep my family in your prayers. Everyone is really having a hard time right now.
Life is hard, but God is good. And He is in control.
If you would like to support me on this crazy journey, I still need help in order to stay past next month. I still have roughly $2,000 to raise by December 1st. As much as I want to go home, I know that I’m not ready and God isn’t done using me here. Please help me continue on this crazy roller coaster ride!
Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us. – Hebrews 12:1
