For me the hardest part of this whole process is the fundraising. But it’s through this process that God has been teaching me to trust Him. He has put me in a situation where the only way I’ll be able to reach my fundraising goal of $5000 by the 18th is His provision and not my works. I have to trust that God has a plan and in the end everything will work out.
Trust is something I have struggled with for a very long time. It’s not because I don’t want to trust God or the people who care about me. But sometimes it seems easier to work for what I need instead of trusting God to provide it. Sometimes it seems easier to take on the weight of every responsibility set before me then to trust that other people want to help.
This is the mindset that God has been pulling me out of. He is teaching me to lay down my pride and works and to let Him be God and provider. I have had to repent of a mindset that put my works in a place of greater value then the Lord’s provision, and a belief that says, “While God is good and provides He just doesn’t provide for me”. He has been breaking down the lies of the enemy and in their place He has been planting His truth and promises.
