This is my last blog post in the United States for almost a year and I have been wrestling for words to describe my thoughts and feelings.
The last week has been one of the most challenging weeks of my life as I said goodbye to the people I care most deeply for in this world and said hello to a life of uncertainty with people who were strangers all of 6 weeks ago.
Emotions have been hard between now and training camp. I have had so many people ask me if I am scared, nervous, excited or if I am really ready for this and truthfully, I have no idea how I feel about the world I am about to enter. I wish that I could give people a concrete answer for how I feel or how the Lord has been preparing my heart for this day but I am numb to the reality of what my life entails in this season.
Had you asked me all of these questions a week ago, I would have told you that I was never going to feel ready for an experience like this. I had dozens of hard goodbyes left to say, items to buy and clothes to pack. I had a checklist that near hit the ground of ‘to dos.’ I had places to visit and food I still wanted to eat. I had letters to write and hugs to give and it seemed as though this preparation period would never end. However, as we wrap up our time in Atlanta and prepare to fly to Chile in the morning, I feel nothing but anticipation and excitement for what the Lord has in store for this journey.
I can’t wait for the community, the heartbreak and the unknowns. I can’t wait for the moments that feel impossible because I know that when I am at my weakest, my God is at His strongest and I look forward to the work that is to be done for His kingdom, in me and through me.
I am ready.
