If you know me, you know I care deeply for others and things I am passionate about, I also get attached easily. I’m three months away from launching and I’ve already sat in sadness one night about all I’m leaving behind. When you first learn the definition of home you learn that it’s a building, somewhere you stay. As you grow up you learn that home is being surrounded by people you love. Taking these thoughts on I cried as I am abandoning both of these definitions.
It was then as I was planning my FCA devotional I came across one that suited exactly what God knew I needed. Jon Bloom wrote a devotional called “Taking Heart in Uncertainty.” Bloom discussed how difficult uncertainty can be but that even Jesus told his disciples that they must be able to bear it to follow him. He talks a man that adored Jesus and proclaimed he wanted to follow him, Bloom shares Luke 9:58, “And Jesus said to him, “Foxes have holes, and birds of the air have nests, but the Son of Man has nowhere to lay his head.” What the man needed to understand was that Jesus was homeless, he had no home. Bloom writes, “God doesn’t tell us how that person responded because what’s important is the implied question: can you bear uncertainty? Can you bear not knowing how God is going to provide for your most urgent needs and still trust that he will?”
These questions struck a bolt through my heart. Bloom’s discussion of being led by faith and not by fear hit me even harder. How can I proclaim to follow Jesus and share his message if I’m afraid because I cannot leave my home city or my family and friends? The stage of uncertainty that I am experiencing will come and go. I learned that it’s in these moments that God can sometimes do the most powerful experiences, which I truly believe. Hebrews 11:6 states, “And without faith it is impossible to please him, for whoever would draw near to God must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who seek him.”
This was message I needed to hear. One that reminds me that I have a God that acts for me if I wait for him. If I live by life by my faith instead of fear I can be bold in my actions and love unconditionally without fear. I’m leaving home and I’m leaving people I hold dear to follow a Father that is all knowledgeable, all powerful, one that desires good for everyone that calls to him. My God is with me throughout this journey and that is certain.
Much love & many blessings,
Rachel
