Being on the race has been an amazing opportunity to see the different ways people can be gifted and for us to explore and grow in our gifts. Some people are natural worshipers, they always have a song in their hearts, quick to praise quick to worship. Some people are prayer warriors, they are the first ones to say “lets pray”, they aren’t always called to do but they always feel called to pray and will do so tirelessly for those who do feel called into the thick of things. Some people are pastors at heart, they will sit with you deep in whatever mess you are in and counsel you through, they will hold your  hand and walk you back to Jesus.  Those are not my giftings. I appreciate them, I see how they are for the glory of the kingdom but they are simply not my forte. My gift is talking to strangers, a.k.a. evangelism.

I would have never pegged myself as an evangelist or anything in particular, well maybe as a teacher before I realized how unstudious I am. I just thought I was nosey and chatty = talks to strangers.  There is a sheer joy that comes from sharing the gospel with people who haven’t heard or even worse haven’t heard the truth of it, just people telling them about hell and that they will go there. The gospel isn’t about hell, its about Love. Jesus is Love personified, God is Love. Sin isn’t bad for you because its sin, its sin because it is bad for you, and God was willing to die for us to save us from the bondage of it.  That sure sounds like good news to me, way better than, if you don’t follow my ideology you are going to spend eternity in hell. I think obedience to God that flows out of fear will only last as long as the fear is fresh and the person is scared, God did not give us a spirit of fear, so that doesn’t seem natural. On the other hand obedience of God that flows out of Love will not only grow and mature as the understanding of the depth of God’s love grows but it will overflow into the lives of others as that person learns to walk in love as Christ did.  Sometimes the things that come out of my mouth surprise me, the analogies God gives me to explain to a person in a way that can wrap their mind around. I have talked about parenthood and chickens, soap bubbles and world travel.

Now to my dilemma. I am pulled off ministry unless I can get an additional $1,668.50 in my support account and I will be sent home from the field if I don’t get it by Friday October 1st. Today we were invited to a funeral, a funeral is a great opportunity to meet no believers trying to make sense of the universe and therefore a great place to present the gospel to open hearts, but I can’t go. I know God has a plan and that this is part of it, but I would much rather be out talking to strangers about God than writing another blog about my lack of funding. I know there are no mistakes or coincidences in the kingdom but I really hate how much this feels like wasted time.
 
 

Thank you for reading my blog and a huge ridiculous thank you to those who have supported my mission, progress has been made  in the last few days and it is a huge encouragement!! Thank you and may God bless you all!!