Trusting God: it seems so simple, it’s just a choice we make. We hear it all the time in church that we need to trust in the Lord, yet why can it be so hard to trust in Him? I love God, I want to have a relationship with Him, yet I’ve realized that I have a hard time trusting in Him with everything.
I was recently confronted with this idea of always trusting God when I started working for Out Of Darkness, which is a non-profit faith-based organization that helps women escape from the bonds of commercial sexual exploitation by showing them the love, protection, and acceptance from Christ. I ABSOLUELY LOVE WORKING WITH OUT OF DARKNESS! I have been so blessed to be surrounded by staff members who are all on fire for Jesus and who want to do His will every day. Every decision they make is based on what God is telling them to do. The staff and a lot of the survivors who I work with have faith that astounds me. Being around people with this kind of passion for Jesus is AMAZING. But, in watching them pray and trust God with everything, it has made me realize how little I trust God with my daily life.
If you have read my testimony or my other blog posts, then you might already know that as of this past year, I have given my life to God and have become a child in His kingdom. I grew up in the church, but I never had a true relationship with God until this past year. I am so thankful to be a part of His family now. However, because I spent 20 years of my life without God in my heart, I developed some bad tendencies, one of which is to forget about God during the day and to rely on myself. This is how a typical day goes for me:
I wake up in the morning and spend alone time with God. I feel super on fire for God in that moment. Then I go to work. As the business and exhaustion of life surrounds me, I lose sight of God. I begin to rely on myself. When I am faced with a situation or decision, I fall back onto what my school, my parents, my friends, and my feelings tell me what to do. God is rarely a part of that thought process and I don’t ask Him for help. I think I am supposed to do life on my own. Then when it fails, I blame myself and everything comes crashing down.
I want to change this. I want to rely on God more. I am challenging myself and all those who fall into my routine to break this cycle and learn to trust in God with EVERYTHING. The days which I do decide to trust in God, it is amazing how much more relieved and peaceful I feel. Instead of relying on my own poor judgment, I am able to ask the creator of the universe to tell me what to do.
Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight.
God wants us to succeed. He wants to show us the way. If we let Him do that, He will bless us. I love how this verse says trust the Lord with ALL your heart. That means not just when we are scared, not just when we feel like it, but ALL THE TIME. God is here for us and He will NEVER forsake us.
As I go forward in life, I want to rely on God and learn to trust in Him more. Whether the decision is big or small, I want to give it all to God. I ask that you please pray for me and ask that God gives me the strength to trust in Him and that God will help me realize that He is all that I need.
I am so glad we have a God to rely on. I would not be able to do this on my own. GOD IS GOOD!
