Vietnam. I can’t believe our time here is coming to an end. Way back in India, i heard the World Race described as “the days are long but the months are short.” It continues to be the most accurate thing I have heard on this journey.
This month has been a hard month. Our ministry was great and reminded me so much of home. We worked in a preschool, built and painting a white picket fence, and taught English. It was busy, full of long days and many tasks but it was good. But at this point in the Race, the honeymoon phase is over. It’s not that the excitement is gone, we have just gotten comfortable with this lifestyle. The newness and blissful living is wearing off. Even though I should have expected it, it took me by surprise.
In the book Kingdom Journeys by Seth Barnes, it talks about the stage of brokenness. On every kingdom journey, you have to be broken to be rebuilt. God has taught me a lot this month of pushing into the brokenness and seeing the freedom on the other side. There have been many little victories and little defeats.
Being as stubborn as I am, brokenness hasn’t come easy. I push it off and fill it with worldly things instead of embracing it. But God is patient. He knows my heart and knows my desires and fears. He is all knowing. He knows when the right time will be for me to be broken, so I can be remade stronger. He is loving. This brokenness is showing me his love. How unconditional and powerful it is. How in every aspect of my life, He has always been there.
We are now 1/4 of the way done with the race. I have come so far, and grown so much. But I know it’s not over. It never is. There will always be brokenness and growth so God can recreate us into who we were always meant to be. I am on my way up in this, but I want to ask for prayers. This is a hard stage to walk through, but I know it is only for the better. So just pray for strength and comfort during this time for me.
