I’ve decided that being on the world race is like staring at yourself in a giant mirror. I see all of my insecurities, all of the lies I’ve believed about myself, and all of the fears I’ve been walking in more clearly than ever.
Last month the Lord began teaching me that my identity is secure in Him. I’ve known that I am His daughter, that I am loved, that I am His workmanship but for as long as I can remember but I have not truly believed these truths but have been walking in and living out of my insecurities and fears. From not being outgoing enough, not being good enough, to feeling like I don’t fit in, to not feeling worthy of Christ’s love. I have struggled through a lot of different insecurities and fears.
What the Lord revealed to me in the past couple of weeks is that underneath all of those insecurities I am discontent in who He has created me to be.
He says that I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Psalm 139:14
He says that I am His workmanship created in Christ Jesus for good works which He prepared beforehand that I might walk in them. Ephesians 2:10
He says that I am created in His image Genesis 1:27
There have been so many times over the years that I have compared myself to others and wished I was more outgoing, funnier, and basically just different than who He created me to be, But He has purposefully created me. I was thought of in His mind and formed by His hands. It is such an amazing thing to be thought of and created by the King of the Universe. I would rather be thought of in the mind of God than to be whatever version of myself I could think of. I am created in His image so the qualities He has given me are a reflection of Him. There is value in that and the qualities He has given me are not any less or any better than what He has given others. He has given me exactly what I need to fulfill His purposes for my life. I’m not perfect but I am who I am supposed to be.
I say to the Lord, “You are my Lord; I have no good apart from you.” … The Lord is my chosen portion and my cup; you hold my lot. The lines have fallen for me in pleasant places; indeed, I have a beautiful inheritance. Psalm 16:2,5-6
So that is what I have been learning over the past month.
My team and I arrived in Honduras last week after a great month working with Mission of Hope: Haiti. We spent our month in Haiti organizing donations for the organization, building s conference center, teaching VBS for village kiddos, and going into villages to share the Gospel and play with sweet children.
Our month in Honduras is going to look a but different from the previous months. Instead of having a set ministry we are traveling around Honduras looking for possible contacts for future world race teams and embracing the opportunities the Lord places in our path.
I’ll try to keep you updated on our adventures around Honduras!
Love you all,
Rachel
