(A reflection)
Moldova, a country I did not know existed but yet the Lord sent me… to help change lives, to serve, to love, to share the good news… but mostly to CHANGE my life.
I am usually a deep thinker, a processor and am able to express what is going on in this wild head of mine… but in Moldova I felt stuck. I had a hard time writing blogs, I had a hard time understanding what I was learning, I was having a hard time processing what the Lord was doing in my life…
The struggle in this was because when we got to Europe I began a new chapter in my walk… ABIDING.
Abiding in the Lord is so good, it is so sweet. It is amazing, words can not explain it. I think of abiding in the Lord as that moment when we are at some amazing worship session, surrounded by people we love in a dark room, with that amazing song that you don’t even hear because you are just basking in the Lords presence… a smile is across your face, tears down your cheek because you are in awe of how much the Lord loves you, nothing else matters in that moment, nothing but being still and worshiping your father, your heart is at peace, your mind can not find a single thing to be concerned with, all you can do is LOVE. That is what Abiding was for me.
But now, an entire season of abiding. WHAT!? Is that even possible!?
After trying for a few days to figure out what this looked like, doing, trying, striving to figure out what abiding was going to mean for me… I would spend time in prayer, figuring out what it looked like, what was this season going to look like Lord!? What was this season going to accomplish… but instead the Lord answered me with a simple and frustrating answer…
BE STILL!
Ok lord how do I DO that?
But the truth I learned quickly was I can not DO abiding, I can not strive to be a good abider, I can not be in motion and be still at the same time.
ABIDING…
