It has been an interesting experience so far… Of course it
has been difficult for this reason or for that. But to be totally honest if I
stop for even a second and remember that none of this is about me and put my
selfish needs and desires aside… denying my flesh… it makes things so simple.
It is not difficult for God to love his people through me. I just have to show
up. So here I am. I have shown up… and God is faithful. I have realized how
selfish I am. How my nature tells me that everything is for me or about me…
when really… there is so much more to life. I am moving into a place of genuine
realization that serving others and allowing God to give through me is the best
way to live. And its not by my doing or power or action… I cant do anything
about it except show up, be available and willing. How could it get better than
that!?
I have also come to a place where I am tired of only
embracing the promises I need to get me through a trial or suffering or this or
that. I am at this point where I just want to believe in His promises all the
time. It seems that I am always making excuses, justifying why I settle for
less than what my Papa offers me. The truth is that God wants a blessed life
for me that satisfies and is enough and is beyond enough but a life of
abundance. A life full of joy no matter what the circumstance. A life of peace
in a world that forces me to worry. I want to live the life that Christ died on
the cross for me to live. Free, not bound. Clean, not dirty. Treasure, not
scum. Alive, not dead. Joyful, not depressed, Abundant, not unsatisfied.
Endurance, not failure. Love, not offense. Accepted, not rejected. Gentle, not
angry. Steadfast, not chaotic.
I will attempt to strive for these things. (Will you go on
this journey with me?) What would it look like if I intentionally took my
thoughts captive. Truly embraced these promises. Truly walked out the Gospel.
Truly started living for the Kingdom, denying my flesh and allowing the spirit
to flow and work in me. I will fill my mind and meditate on things that are
true, noble, reputable, authentic, compelling, gracious. Things that are the
best not the worst, the beautiful, not the ugly, things to praise not things to
curse.
WAKE UP!!! You have MORE than you deserve and MORE than you
need. WAKE UP and start living for someone other than yourself. WAKE UP and
stop being bound by the chains of your past. WAKE UP and embrace the promises.
WAKE UP and serve others. WAKE UP and love others more than you love yourself.
God has planted desires and power in you to change this world… but you have to
believe it, have the faith to believe in it before you will do anything about
it!!!!
Here is a video of us coming from Port to our new home… it is really fun!!!
Cribs video coming soon… and others.
Rach
