Hey everyone! First off, let me apologize for being so bad about writing blogs and thank you all again for your support!
I think it has been hard to get this blog started because I don’t know where to start. Its like I have so much to say but I dont want to start from the beginning which is why I am starting this blog on where I am now… and hopefully I will find the words to continue on from this point:)
Right this second I am sitting at my friend Sydney’s apartment in Montgomery. I’ve been blessed to live with her pretty much since december- for free:) I was going to take classes at auburn again this semester but I felt leaving would be too rushed for me if I did that and there would be a ton of people I wouldn’t get to say goodbye to.. now looking back I see that God was the one giving me time to spend before I left. He gave me this time to focus on hanging out with old friends and especially family. this was clear to me last month we found out my grandmother has congestive heart and lung disease and that a lot of the muscles in her heart are completely dead– it was my wake up call to drop anything and everything to spend time with her and my pawpaw. though we live in 2 completely different worlds, I love the simple-small-farm-God-fearing world they live in, and God called me to spend more time there and learn from them.. which I did last week:) It was awesome! I learned a lot about hard work and country cooking..
After I got back to montgomery from visiting my grandparents, I realized I had nothing to do. I had been working but had to quit my job to be able to visit my grandparents more. I figured I’d enjoy not having anything to do but then it hit me how much God has designed us to work and be productive. He gave us the sabbath of course and I believe we need one day a week to rest, but the other days He gave us a drive to accomplish things. the first night after having nothing to do all day, i sat in bed wide awake. i felt so unaccomplished. I had lived a whole 24hours in a world that is so in need and hadnt done any kind of work…so i thought a lot about what I could do with myself and started making bracelets. this might sound silly because my bracelets aren’t saving he world or feeding hungry children-yet- but there is no telling what God could do with someone who is willing to work for His glory even if it is just making bracelets out of fabric and hand embroddering words on them. I love it. if i was to have a “thing” i’m starting to think this is it:) I’m hoping to continue to make these bracelets and possibly move on to bags and eventually start selling them! and I am sure that whether or not I see it, God will be glorified in my bracelet making:):)
What God is teaching me:
Right now I feel like God trying to teach me to stop trying so much. If He was my dancing partner (which He is), I’m pretty sure He would tell me to stop looking down at my feet and look Him in the eyes. Too often I get caught up in figuring out how to move in step with God in this world when really I just need to fix my eyes on Him and hold on to Him. If we are doing those 2 easy things aren’t we destined to be in step with Him? I think so. Its such a relief to come to that realization because the pressure is off. We no longer have to view following Christ as a skilled task or job that we are constantly questioning the next step, but instead we can view it for the perfect love relationship that it is.. we are free to dance through this world with Him even though we don’t know the dance. The whole point is to just focus on Him. He will lead us:)
