Oh Boy…

I’ve been confused.  I know God is calling me to specific decisions, however it feels like everything I try to do, He says I can’t do it on my own strength.  As I mentioned in the last blog, I feel like this month is the month to let go of worrying and start trusting God.  It’s been a hard month.  I will tell you that.  It’s my last month before I go home.  There are pressures on me to find a job, find housing (check!), and figure out how to make all this money that I don’t have.  It seems like it’s something that cannot be done.  In still needing to raise support, paying off loan payments and having housing without a job, HOW CAN THIS HAPPEN?  

I have to admit, I need to count my blessings.  This whole housing situation…completely from God.  The only thing I did in finding housing was message one of my friends who lives in Madison asking her where she is living.  One of her friends, who I met right before I left for the Race ONCE, messaged me asking me if was interested in housing, as well the other girl living in the apartment is a Christian.  It blows me away, because yes, I do not have the money right now.  I know, you probably think I’m a lunatic.

Second thing, I was looking at buying a plane ticket home from Atlanta.  The ticket was running $181, the next day it jumped up to $221.  For 1-way plane ticket?!  Despite conflicts that happened that day, I didn’t buy the ticket.  I allowed time away, because Rachel making decisions in the moment, can turn out bad sometimes…  The next day, I figured the ticket would go up, because that’s normal with flights.  Instead it DROPPED.  The ticket I bought was $163. 

I know these things don’t seem huge, when there’s sums of money much greater than what is mentioned.  Believe me…looking at all the figures I (need), I’m overwhelmed.  But like I said, God is asking me to trust Him.  I have no clue how God is going to do this, but He’s God.  He can do this, because HE IS GOD!