If you have been following up on my recent postings, I was taking a break from checking my account. I think as a future missionary it’s so easy to focus on support and start thinking of everything YOU need to do. Oh today I have to make this call to this supporter and tomorrow this call to this organization. Dang! I forgot to take my bracelets to church with me today. The reality of this whole thing, though, is it’s not up to us to decide what’s going to happen. We need to place complete hope and faith in Yahweh. And on top of starting to surrender, God has been starting to give more and more to me. Let me remind you, it’s not about me, but about Him, but He loves to give His children good gifts. And freedom is one of those gifts. So moral of the story here is that with surrender comes faith and trust. Even though it has been a rough patch this past few weeks, I feel my faith has been strengthened and hope is starting to come out more and more!
This is pretty sweet stuff. God knows exactly what I’m thinking at all moments of the day. He knows that my mind has been focused on Me, Me, ME! What do I need to do to get my gear, my support, my appointments? Through this “fast,” my support account only changed by $150, which is great, but I was expectant of more. However, God has been graciously providing for me in other ways. My health insurance (medicine, emergency visits within the States, if need be) is only costing me $240 for 11 months! Yes, that is accurate! People have been buying bracelets like crazy and students I work with are more than willing to sell them to their peers and schools! The same students have been keeping a jar and bringing in their spare “change,” which in turn has been cash. (Total amount collected by high school boys: $75!) People I know have been willing to buy me gear, which I can honestly say I’m almost done with getting the big ticket items for this trip.
(The note is very encouraging!)
It’s great to know that God is still providing even if it doesn’t mean straight to my support account. He is taking care of the issues I’m focusing on and teaching me there’s more to life than ME. He’s taking away the things I’m focused on and bringing me back to faith in Him!
