Father, I long to feel you near to me. So close that every breath that I take is in your presence. I’m tired of a life style where I only go to you when I want or need something from you. When I look at my walk with you over the years I wonder why you have stuck by my side. Every time that I’ve tucked you away in my trunk of forgottens, I’m amazed that you still watch out for me, and that you still want me. Why Lord? Why do you always forgive? Why do you always love? Why do you always hear me when I cry out to you? I’m a horrible friend to you. I’m not loyal, or trustworthy, or faithful. I’m not dependable. I fall away from you at the slightest temptation. Yet, you always welcome me back when I finally realize that I can do nothing apart from you. What will it take for me to walk away from my fleshly desires and choose you EVERY TIME, IN EVERY CIRCUMSTANCE, IN EVERY HOUR? The more I look at my life outside of you the more I see how pathetic I am. I am reminded of a young child who is lost or can’t find their father. They are helpless, they don’t know where to turn, or what to do. All they can do is cry out and wait for their father to hear their voice and come rescue them. What a perfect illustration of my relationship with you. I, the child have chosen to stray away from my father (You) and I can do nothing but cry out to you and wait for you to come save/rescue me. I am helpless apart from you.
