We were asked to write a blog about how we felt before leaving on this missions trip.
Here is what I am expecting:
i wouldn’t say i have any last minute worries as of yet… it is my current worries. Getting these blogs done and learning about my teammates is a current concern. 
not that i am overly worried but i am the type of person who wants to do things Right. I have been so BUSY lately and taking on a lot with the knowledge that i don’t have much time before i leave. my days are not spent idle yet i feel i am falling behind on the Team Expectations… i have continually been fearful of DISAPPOINTING people… (something engrained in my life) Maybe i’m ok… maybe i need to take a deep breath and chill.
not that i am overly worried but i am the type of person who wants to do things Right. I have been so BUSY lately and taking on a lot with the knowledge that i don’t have much time before i leave. my days are not spent idle yet i feel i am falling behind on the Team Expectations… i have continually been fearful of DISAPPOINTING people… (something engrained in my life) Maybe i’m ok… maybe i need to take a deep breath and chill.somewhere along the lines of my experiences… i have really taken grasp of not worrying about the future. (like the BIG picture) I don’t know if that’s because i have fully realized that i have little control of planning a future of my own or what. ? Let’s just say… next weekend was suppose to be my wedding day – – that’s perhaps why i don’t plan… i decided to let God’s Will Be Done. 
Because His timing is the Best timing and until then… why worry?
it get’s me nowhere…
Because His timing is the Best timing and until then… why worry? it get’s me nowhere…
i could worry about danger, bugs, sleeping, dirty conditions, weather, teammate communication, homesickness and more… but what will that do me… and how does one really prepare for that?
i’m sure those things will come… i am just now at a spot of saying,
“i EXPECT these things to be issues and situations that will need overcoming… and i EXPECT that i will rely upon God to get me through them.”
i’m sure those things will come… i am just now at a spot of saying,
“i EXPECT these things to be issues and situations that will need overcoming… and i EXPECT that i will rely upon God to get me through them.”
i have supportive family and friends who will be there for me… praying for me and helping me get through it all as well…
right now my patience and faith in God need to get me to a place that i am strong enough to perservere these times of preparation, financial obligation and fear of the unknown…
These are my Expectations…
