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I sit here at the North Terminal of the Atlanta airport on Jan.8th 2010… wondering where my life is taking me. Not lost in complete confusion, but hopeful and eager to get started on this next step. One I have no idea where it will lead. I’m here to partake in a program called Project Searchlight that is going to help me figure out what my next move is. Is it getting involved in a ministry? Is it starting something of my own? Will I be traveling? What will I have to fundraise for next? How am I going to do that? And the list goes on and on…

The last time I was in this airport was… Oct 17th 2008. I was hear about the same time of the day waiting to meet my squad mates as we were about to dive into training camp. What a rush. 

It’s surreal to think of ALL that has changed, all that I have seen, been through, people I have met and people I have come to love. It’s strange.

I was off on a different adventure last time, with many unknowns and unsure of what was going on, unsure of my role in the scheme of life, God’s plan. I didn’t know what trust was… I knew what taking a leap of faith was… cuz that’s what I was doing.

This adventure… is equally full of unknowns. Actually this one is a little riskier. This unknown is my life. The last unknown was a year. I gave the Lord a year… and in turn surrendered my life.

Trust. Why the heck is it so hard? Why would I ever second guess a God who is ALWAYS there… ALWAYS taking care of me, providing a way for me, and teaching me loving me through it ALL? My Creator, My Father, My Lover, My Friend. He knows what’s best… and yet I want to bad to take matters into my own hands and run with the next great plan… the next quick fix, the next fast money. Cuz the goal is in eyes shot, the money is within reach, or that guy is close by. (not literally just say’n) It is written…

Psalm 4:5

Offer right sacrifices, and put your trust in the LORD.

Psalm 25:2

O my God, in you I trust; let me not be put to shame; let not my enemies exult over me.

Psalm 56:3

When I am afraid I put my trust in you.

Psalm 119: 41-42

Let your steadfast love come to me, O LORD, your salvation according to your promise; then shall I have an answer for him who taunts me, for I trust in your word.

Proverbs 3:5

Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding.

Hebrews 2:13   

I will put my trust in the LORD.

Psalm 37:4

Delight yourself in the LORD, and he will give you the desires of your heart.

Father… I don’t know what’s going on. Forgive me for my lack of trust, my uneasiness or anxiety. I know that you love me and want the best for me. Father God, I pray that I learn what right sacrifices I need to make to remain close to You and in Your will. Lord Jesus Your covering and protection is upon Your sheep as You are the Good Shepherd who never loses sight of His sheep and protects me from my enemies. Lord, when I am afraid I will do my best to put my trust in You. Lord my answer to a world that taunts me to look a certain way, act a certain way, or go a certain way is this… I trust in the Word of the Lord. Let that be my guide, may You be in the lead. I will never understand all of Your ways, Your plans, Your Character or Your love. But I choose to lean on You with all my heart. LORD GOD… I PUT MY TRUST IN YOU. I thank You that as I delight in You, you will give me the desires of my heart. And what more could I ask for? (Psalm 103:1-5) Bless the LORD, O my soul, and all this is within, me bless his holy name! Bless the LORD, O my soul and forget not all his benefits, who forgives all your iniquity, who heals all your diseases, who redeems your life from the pit, who crowns you with steadfast love and mercy, who satisfies you with good so that your youth is renewed like the eagle’s. I pray this all the Mighty Name of Jesus. AMEN.