Can I be real? Like really real? Talk about the hard things on the race, the difficult things to talk about?
This month we watched half way come and go, we are now on the home stretch of our journey. The Home Stretch… wow
And I have been in a slump. I am tired; physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually. I am exhausted. For a couple weeks I was ready to quit, ready to be done, I was tired of fighting and pushing through. I was angry with God. I was angry that He sent me on this trip only to then break me. I was frustrated that I had to fight so many unexpected battles; for myself, for my team, for my relationships. I was angry that this was harder than I ever could have expected. I was angry that I was angry!
I. Was. Angry.
But something happened. I was tired of fighting, but my team was ready to wage war, ready to fight on my account. They were ready to love me, encourage me, pray for me and push me to the places I didn’t want to be pushed. They were even willing to fight against me when I tried to stand bull headed in my anger. They were ready to be my support when I had no more strength to support myself.
And when I finally let go of my anger and opened my heart again I realized that God was still speaking love into me. Reminding me that this adventure has only just begun and that He is waiting for me! Waiting for me to get up off the ground, brush the dust off my pants and join Him in the beauty He has planned for me.
So today I am fighting through the brokenness. I am fighting because God is worth it, because my team is worth it and because I am worth it! In my brokenness I am beautiful, and when I walk in that God moves.
So now I have two requests for you:
1st I am in need of encouragement, and am asking for you to fight with me, for me. A verse, a word from God, a prayer, or whatever you have. An e-mail, facebook message or comment on this blog would be amazing!
2nd My final financial deadline to stay on this race is April 7th. I still have about $1,300 to raise before then. Would you consider partnering with me in that?
Thank you for ALL of your prayers and support! It is because of you that I am still here and I am so blessed by that!
Blessings,
Rachel
Somewhere Beautiful (my awesome team!) with our contacts in Vietnam
