So in my post about my expectations I said that I expected to see with blood shot eyes. Most people have probably heard it said as seeing through rose colored glasses. I don’t really like that saying though. To me it sounds too pretty, too nice, and too safe. That’s everything that the cross wasn’t.
So I was listenin to the song Give Me Your Eyes by Brandon Heath one day and it talks about going through life so consumed with ourselves that we don’t notice those around us and he says “give me your eyes for just one second. give me your eyes so I can see.” It got me to thinking how does God see us? He sees us through the blood of Christ right…so I become inspired to write! This is what came out:
I walk alone down a long dirt road. It’s evening and there is a chill in the air. Just hours ago these very streets were filled with hundreds of shouting pepole. Now in the silence I can still hear their screams vividly in my head.
When I finally make it to the end of this long road I can’t help but fall to my knees. My head drops. Tears being to stream down my face and make a puddle on the ground. With much resistance I lift my eyes enough to see what’s in front of me. I can’t look for long for I can’t bear to see. It breaks my heart.
In that glimpse I see something mangled..torn..ripped..broken..and alone. It’s a grotesque and bloody sight.
You can no longer tell that was once a man. Not just any man. My teacher..my friend..my Lord..my Savior. Jesus!!
I can’t bear to see him this way. But i know that this vision..this grotesquely beautiful bloody vision had to come to pass.
That my sins did this to him and because of his love for us..for me..he willingly chose to go through EVERY SINGLE rejection..insult..beating upon beating to atone for my sin. He conquired death! Now I may live!
My life is full of disappointments, failings, numbness, happiness, joy, stress, learning, growing, love. But my eyes..my vision..is murky. I see and it’s unclear so I make my own conclusions.
I long to be able to see clearly. But what is clearly? No matter how hard I try my vision doesn’t clear.
To see how God sees. But how does he see? He sees with a loving beautiful bloody vision! When he sees us..his precious children..he sees the blood of his son..our Savior..Christ Jesus!!
Oh to see the world with this amazingly, beautiful, loving, bloody vision. To see his creation for the beauty it reflects. To see his children with the same love he does. With no judgment or separation. But with love and unity. How for just one single second I could see the world with a bloody vision!
Do we pray, ask, and seek fervently for it from God or do we ask once or twice? Do we get discouraged when we don’t see the world like this? Are we satisfyed when we get just one lil glimpse and that’s all we want? But mostly are we prepared for what He might show us?
It’s easy to look at people and the world and see what the world shows us and the brokeness and all the crap. But are we ready to see what God sees? It’s easy to love people that are easy to love. But what about the ones that aren’t so easy to love? It’s easy to see potential in “good” people that are “doin something” with their life. But what about the ones that are lost, hurting, and “going no where”? Are we ready to see the good and the bad that we will be shown?
My answer. I don’t think we’re ever prepared for something like that. But I also think that’s the amazing part of it. We look at the world through a murky vision, but when we see it through that amazing bloody vision oh how our world will be wrecked! Wrecked for the better! All of our preconcieved ideas and notions will be shattered. Our heart will break for what breaks His. There will be tears. There will be hurt. There will be joy. There will be peace. And there will definately be change. Change for the better. Change to daily want to have that bloody vision. Change to be moved to be a part of the Kingdom here on earth.
For Him..
