So in case you don’t know me very well, it’s hard for me to ask for help sometimes. Okay, all the time. Even though my love language is service, it’s honestly really hard for me to let people serve me. I think it has something to do with….well I might as well just say it. Pride.
Pride is something that I think I’ve always struggled with, but I believe it’s become more evident through this process of fundraising. Raising money for the World Race isn’t like anything I’ve ever done before. Pretty much in everything I’ve ever done in the past, I’ve worked really hard, and then saw the payoff that hard work. I don’t like to ask for help, and I like to do things on my own.
The World Race isn’t like that though. I can’t just work really hard and do it myself. For this process, I’ve had to be totally reliant on other people. Honestly, that’s really difficult for me. It’s hard for me to let people help with the small things, so it’s definitely been hard for me to rely on others for $15,500.
Now back to the pride issue (can’t skip over that one). Every time I look at the account for my trip, I am seriously humbled. I never expected to be learning this lesson before I even left on the World Race, but God is like that (teaching ya things when ya don’t expect it). It’s been very humbling having to ask others for help, but that’s one of the reasons God created the body of Christ. He didn’t create us to be alone or to do things on our own. He created us to love other people, but also to accept love from other people. I know this is a lesson God will continually teach me on the race, but I am so blessed that He has started teaching it to me now!
