For whatever reason coming into this year I just thought that I would atomatically become super holy, like even though I have never heard the voice of God audibly, just because I got on a plane and went to Australia I would hear Him every day. Or even though I struggle with desiring Gods word daily, just because I have committed the next 11 months of my life to missions I would all of the sudden not even want to sleep because I desire to be in the word 24 hours a day.
I am learning that the Lord can change things in the blink of an eye but He most often chooses to work things out gradually. That is as much his will as miraculous signs and wonders. I think the Lord is showing me that it takes time and patience for these things to come. Not only patience but an expectant, hopeful, Christ centered patience that puts Him at the forefront of things and not the blessing or hoped outcome of what we are waiting for. I was reading in my commentary about hope in Romans 5.
It said, Hope is not an uncertain, wishful thought but an assurance of something not yet fully experienced but guaranteed here and now by the love of God that the Holy Spirit pours into belivers’ hearts.
That is the kind of hope I am talking about. I was listening to a sermon today from The Village Church and the pastor Matt Chandler said something very interesting. He said religion seeks out God’s blessings…, but the Gospel seeks out God. The only blessing a true follower of Christ should seek is the presence of God. I think I am learning that I haven’t been desiring the presence of God solely. I have been desiring other secondary things like songs or even ministry opportunities, which are both good things if they a birthed out of a heart that is seeking Christ and Him alone.
So with that in mind, I am patiently seeking with an expectant, hopeful heart that Christ would reveal Himself to me so that I might bring Him glory through my COMPLETE satisfaction in Him and Him alone!
