I live my life wanting to be accepted by society. I don’t want to be judged by them, I want to be accepted, but I realize that it is not making me happy. I am not happy trying to figure out my future. I am not happy going to school just to get a degree. I am not happy ending up with a career that was satisfactory and pays well.
I had all these plans, because from the time I was little, I had people ask me, so what do you want to do when you grow up, what are you going to do after high school and what Universities have you applied for. The list can go on, but here in Canada, we are so focused on our future and what we have to live for, but we don’t focus on today, and what makes us truly happy. This year things started aligning and I know that I am following God’s plan for my life.
In the past month I have been interning with my church’s kids ministry. The experience has been amazing and it is teaching me so much about full time ministry! With this internship I have been given an opportunity to invest in kids lives, and if you know me well, kids have a special place in my heart. I love working with them and hope that my forever career will be dealing with kids in someway.
I was also lucky enough to be involved in our Church’s day camp (VBS). The theme this year was Wilderness Escape, Where God Guides and Provides. This theme really stood out to me, as this season of preparing for the World Race has led me to this saying multiple times. As much as this was to teach the kids about how believing in God can lead to some amazing things, the lessons really stood out to me, as a leader, as well! I felt like God was really telling me to Let go, and Let him provide for me!
So He said, “I will certainly be with you. And this shall be a sign to you that I have sent you… Exodus 3:12
This verse was by far one of my favourite memory verses from camp. It shows me that God is always with me and while somedays I may not be living for him, he is always there to fall back on and will always give me a second chance, for we serve a God of Grace, and while I may stumble and fall, he is always there to catch me and pick me up again. This camp, though made for the kids, is a lesson that I needed to hear, and it was amazing to me that God allowed me to spend this summer serving him and learning all that he has in store for me!
In this season of graduating University and trying to plan my future career, I get stressed. I am overwhelmed and I have no idea where I will be after I return from the race. I stress easily and I sometimes second guess my decision to go on the race, but when I stand still and see how God is working in my life, I know that even if my plans for my life are put aside while I venture into the unknown with God, that everything is going to work out.
“Do not be afraid. Stand still, and see the salvation of the Lord, which He will accomplish for you today…” Exodus 14:13
I want to live a life where I am seeking out people, getting to know them and loving on them no matter our differences. I want to live a life that doesn’t include materialistic things, one that means I am living a life seeking out living things instead of dead ones. God didn’t die on the cross for the dead, but he died on the cross for the living, so that we may have eternal life, even through all the sin that we have. I want to seek out a life that is full of energy and smiles, because that is why I was put on this earth, to spread the love of Jesus and to live a life of purpose rather then the status quo. I don’t want to live up to expectations, but rather step out of my comfort zone and enjoy a finding life in living things, because ultimately that is what is going to make me happy, and if I am happy with that then my life will be full and I will end up following where God has planned for me to be since before I was born!
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Love you all,
Quinn
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