I am in no way perfect. I have struggles. I am lost, and undecided. I don’t have a set path. I don’t read my bible everyday. I am confused. I am stressed and overwhelmed. I don’t open up easily.
The World Race is going to challenge me in so many ways, and it makes me excited, but my race doesn’t start in January, it started the day I got accepted. There is so much to do between now and January, but so little time.
School is stressful. Being a University student is not easy. There is so much pressure and expectations to meet. Grades are important, though you only need a C to graduate, it does not get you accepted into grad school. I struggle with school and getting good grades, I am not a straight A student, but I study so hard. I do not have a 4.0 GPA, so is there actually a point in getting a degree with grades that are good, but not the best? I ask myself this everyday. I have doubt, while there would be no reason for me not to graduate this December, I worry that it won’t happen. Even with all of this going on, I have to start preparing for the next chapter in my life, and this just adds to the stress levels.
I am human and I struggle with the pressures of the world. I am not special or a “good” Christian for giving up a year of life and spending it in the mission field. I believe I may have been called, because I have a heart for the world, but in order for me to completely lean on God, he had to take me away from my comforts into the unknown so that all I will have is him to lean on.
I can’t change the world.
I am not going to knock on peoples doors and push a religion on them. I am going to go and spend time with the citizens of every country and show them love, kindness, patience and joy. I am going to show them that their life does matter and that there is a father out there seeking them and then they too, can have unexplainable joy. I am not going to change the world, but I am going to bring a restoring hope to the hopeless and spread unconditional love, that can only be found in one place.
The race has already stretched my comfort zone. When I got accepted, I had so many emotions, I was so excited, but at the same time I was scared. I am not scared to leave for 11 months, but I am scared of the prep that comes with it. The trip will cost $17, 017 USD, or around $23, 000 CAD. This number is extremely large, and it scares me. Fundraising is apart of missions and it is not easy.I got accepted at the beginning of February and did not send out support letters until the middle of March. This is not because I didn’t want people to know what I was doing, but it is because asking people for support is hard, and as an independent person I like to be able to do everything on my own. I have a long ways to go, so if you would like to partner with me, please press on the donate tab in the right hand corner and donate as much as you would like, no amount is too small. You may not be able to join me on the trip, but this money will be doing more than you know.
Funds are important, but prayer is a necessity, so I ask that you join me in prayer and share my journey. The best way to gain support is by word of mouth.
Thank you for reading!
Love,
Quinn
